blahblahblah.

I'm done with blogging its stupid.

One year ago today, December 8th, I tried to commit suicide.
And I feel the exact same as I did that night.

Kyle said hes done with me.
I'm a whore.
And my mother said I'm a failure.

I fucking hate you I hate you so much I hope you fucking die you worthless piece of shit everytime I look at you it makes me wanna fucking kill myself I just wanna fucking die I don't know how to live anymore I fucking hate you just go away I want you to die and burn in hell and die and die and die and keep dying until you know how you made me feel, you fucking piece of fucking shit I fucking hate you.

...

You ruined my brother, you fucking bitch.

I Want To Watch You Squeal Like a Fucking Pig.

So like me and like the loveofmyfuckinglife might get back together.
(:.
Iz so happy. :]
Today was alright. I thought I lost my history folder this morning and I was freaking out about it and guess what? It was in my locker. xD.
In Algebra ohmygodlololol me and Kammie were lmao'ing about nastypreppyfakebitcheswhocannotworkuggs.
And then in third hour me and Mr. McClelland have a new inside joke. :D
OH MY GOD AT LUNCH. XD.
SHANE LOOKS SO AWFUL.
HIS HAIR LOOKS LIKE A REESES-PEANUT-BUTTER-CUP-DIARRHEA-EXPLOSION!
AND HIS SNAKEBITES ARE TOO CLOSE TOGETHER XD

AND HERE'S THE BEST PART, LADIES AND GERMS!



He shaved off his eyebrows.


L.
M.
A.
FUCKING.
TRIPLE.
OH.

Why did you do this to me?

lolololololol

I LOVE how you're like repeatedly calling me fat.

Its so lulzy.

kissme.

That last kiss in the rain.

Your hair looked almost pure green in the neon lights.

All black.

You kissed me.

And that is when I fell for you.



Again.

POOKSHA POOKSHA KAPOWKAPOW BOOMBOOM PENIS.

Idek, I am soo hyperrrr.
I haz to pee! D:

SO.

I haven't been blogging in forevaaaarrrr because I had my computer taken away x.x
I HUNG OUT WITH KYLE FOR THREE DAYS O.O
It was soo insanee.
AND CREEPY COCAINE ADDIKTZ WANT MY PUSSAYE.

Kyle Alexander♥:

You mean so much to me.

I know you say that everyone eventually moves away and stops talking to you, and that it will soon be true with me too, but it won't be. I swear on my life and everything in me, you will always always always have a special part in my heart. Its something weird about you, but it makes me so goddamn attracted to you, it makes me want to have at least something to do with you. I think its the way you don't give two flying fucks about what others are going to say about you, or how you are such a caring person or your sensitivity.

You've been through hell and back, both of us know this. But it has made you such a beautiful person, inside and out. Its really weird. Like...at one second, I think I know everything about you. But the next thing you say, its something I never knew about you. The only conclusion I can come to, is that you're a book that never ends. But I never wanna stop reading that book. Ever.

I want to say how sorry I am for doing what I did to you. I am so sorry. Everyday, I'm disgusted with myself for what I did, when I already knew that you had been lied to, and that it killed you inside. And every time you bring it up, my heart breaks, knowing that when you refer to those two specific girls as "lying bitches" who you "don't want anything to fucking do with", I should be included with them, but I'm not.

Why not? I have no idea, but that's your choice.

When it comes down to it, Kyle you mean the world and a little more to me. You're the only person I would genuinely sob over when you say you won't be around this summer because you'll be in California. I worry about you so much, and I really wish you wouldn't do the things you do, but you seem to be doing fine, so I trust you.

Yesterday, it was the first time I had seen you in four months. Yesterday, when I saw you walk into Hot Topic, it was the happiest I had been since. I'm crying while I write this, and I don't know why, but I can't stop.

I love you to pieces. The simple thought of you being hurt makes me want to die. I am so sorry. I am so, so, so sorry. I don't know why you still talk to me, but you do.

You are the only person in this world who would look at me in the middle of Toys R Us with a panda hat and gloves on and say, "Do you like beastiality?"

You are the only person in this world who would call a spider Pete Wentz and yell at it and say, "YOU RUINED FALL OUT BOY, YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE BIGGER THAN THE BAND!"

You are the only person in this world who would damn me for being too young.

I love you, please don't do something stupid.

Kellyybabyy♥:

It sucks that you live in New Jersey. It really does. I've been talking to you for like...almost two years now, and thinking about that makes me think about how much the both of us have grown up sososososo much.

Typically, someone I have only ever spoken to over AIM or MSN don't usually become my best friends. But you did. Because we have soo much in common, its insane. We'll sit there and have the most ridiculous conversations about Billie Joe/Adrienne/Tre threesomes and Matt Sanders. xD. You've honestly given me some advice I will always live by, like "Life's a bitch. If it was easy it would be a slut.", and all this other stuff you have told me. You are far too mature for your age of 17 sometimes, and you're an AMAZING writer. Like omgz. :3

I love you<3

Jessica♥:

YOU MAKE GYM CLASS SOOSOSOSOSO AMAZING. XD.

You are seriously so fucking epic. xD. Like, one of the coolest people I know. We have had possibly the greatest times together with Zach Allard, Geoffrey, and in gym class messing with the slow kids.

I worry about you sometimes, but only because I love you to bits.

I'm seriously half awake and I have no idea what else to put other than:

TRACTORS ARE FUN.

ilysfm<3

Lumpy♥:

(I forgot your middle name. I feel shitty. xD.)

I haven't been close to you that long, but I love you sososo much. I know that we go through a lot of drama together, especially lately, but in the end, we have a great friendship, and I wouldn't ask for anything different.

I have some of the best memories with you of writing emo-boy slashes, pretending to be ballerinas, having drysex on the side of the road at 789, COREY TAYLOR WANTS YOU WITH HIS NEEDLES!!! XDDDROFL, me being pregnant with a white rapper's baby, being yelled at for playing on toys, and so much more.

I just hope you won't do the things I did, I really do. I don't think its just the fact you're younger than me that makes me kinda protective of you, I think its because of how close I got to you in such a short period of time.

Weird shit man...weird shit.

Iloveyoulumps<3

Alyssa Maureen♥:

I really do not think I spelled your middle name right. Soz. xD.

You are so amazing. You constantly listen to me rag about my problems, and you've gone through my horrendously ugly mood swings with me, and you have helped me through a lot. I know our friendship has been through a loooooooot of shit, but I know in the end, we'll always make it through.

I can talk to you about anything, and I know we always end up making some retarded insider about it on MSN ten minutes later. You are a beautiful girl, inside and out.

I know you don't believe it sometimes, but I luff you girl♥.

Justen James♥:

This kid is my bittle brother. We've had each other since we were in Pull-Ups. :D. I've seen him go from a little blonde kid with dreams of being a rockstar, to a tall ass dark haired strong man with the future of becoming a rockstar.

I love you to bits, JJBoo.

I hope you never forget that.

You're one of the few friends I have that will never leave me, and I know you never will. Even when you're living in Ocean City and I'll be in Ann Arbor, you'll still be the brother I'll call on when I need your amazingly wise advice that far surpasses your age and your strange humor I look back on when I need a smile and you're not there.

I could never ask for a better brother. I am one of the luckiest girls in the world.

Now you go out there and make my Twinneh happy. (:

"The kitty has no green card, and has a sexual content background through rape." - JJBoo<3

xD Don't ask.

Iloveyoubro.

Cassaundra Marie♥:

You are the strongest person I have ever met, and I am thoroughly convinced you will always remain the strongest person I know.

You are such a caring person, it amazes me how much love you have fit into that heart of yours. You will always be one of my best friends, Cassie. ALWAYS. Especially in our Emo Addict House with Dr. Bobby and we have to sleep in the bed full of cocaine, tampons and...was it razorblades? xD. I don't remember. With our snea sakes and emo beach balls and creepy guys showing us their butts on Chat Roulette.

I will never forget you.

Even if its your 30-something birthday and we hadn't talked in years (which I doubt will happen), I'll call you to say happy birthday.

You have helped me with so much within the past year I've been close to you. I would have never made it through the fucking bullshit that was my 7th grade year without you.

I lovith you, and I wish you and Dr. Bobby the best :D<3

Lindsay Alissa♥:

You have been my best friend, through and through, since the fourth grade. I definitely wouldn't of been able to make it through the past four years without you. I know some people don't like you, but its just because they don't know you as well as I do.

Behind everything else, you are a sweet, fun, and caring young girl. And it worries me everyday, I am so terrified you will make the same terrible and horrible mistakes I made. It really does. You have so much potential, and I hope you use it. I really hope you do.

I don't know how to fit our AMAZING friendship into this small entry,

But I love you, Alejandro.

I will always be your Fernando<3

(And Raylene is Luergo<3)

&+...I'll never forget that day in Florida, we promised to be best friends.

.Forever.

Coming Undone_

So, I fucking hate Myspace its fucking doopid. -.-
I'm beginning to hate the Internet.
The only websites I get on are:
Facebook (to stalk o.o)
Mibba (to write :3)
Vampirefreaks (to sitemodel)
4chan/420chan (to troll)
Teenspot (inb4)
Blogspot (to stalk o.o")

So.
Yeah.
xD.
Oh, I hung out with Kyle today and yesterday. We saw a band play tonight, they were called Finding Eden. They played an acoustic set and they were pretty good. He was worrying me though. |:. I'm chillin' with him tomorrow morning before the party too. Gonna be shweeeeeet. :D

Hmph, I missed Kyle. Hes participating in No Shave November and he looks ridiculous. -.-. xDD. I have to stay up all night, so I can go to the Crossing at 9.

NINE IN THE MORNING.

D:.

I think hes sleeping. But I will NOT get my ass up before 8 oh fuck no. xD.

Kyle looked pimp today, he had a panda hat on.
:3

._.

Me and Cameron are overr. xDD.
&+I just told Tyler Rosier how far I've gone, he didn't reply, and I feel like a whore.

Bane♥

This is my Banebear.
Just so Cassie can quit accusing him of being Arab.

Dear Shiloh;
Honestly? You have changed *SO* much, I don't really care if we're friends ever again. I miss the Shiloh who used to wear weird ass outfits and beat me with spoons and do all this crazy shirt with me. Now? You constantly think of what people think of you, and getting in "trouble". And no, I didn't ever fuck you over. I did what I thought was right, by not lying to one of my best friend's face. Obviously you think I'm a bad person or some shit like that, just because I'm not as sheltered as you were. Just please stop talking shit about me and my best friends.


Regards,
Lyndsey.

♥♥♥

Dear Bane,
I am now a /b/fag.
Thanks.
xD

Halloween.

Today's Halloween.
I just got back home from Danielle's. Me, Charles, and Marissa spent the night there.
Last night kinda sucked.
I lost one of my best friends last night.
Fml.
Why can't I just keep my mouth shut?
Seriously. -.-.
Anyway.
I wasn't going to go trick or treating, but NOW my mom is letting me. -.-. So I have to get a zombie kit and be a zombie something. I'm going with Danielle, Charles, and Marissa. Danielle is going to be a school girl, Charles is Justin Beiber, and Marissa is a crazed Justin Beiber fan. o.o
I went Trunk or Treating last night with Charles and Danielle before we got Marissa and they dumped candy all over mine and Charles' squash baby. D:Hmph.
I'm depressed.
I miss Darla.

My Facebook About Me! :D

I find Facebook about me's to be quite ridiculous, so I'm going to use this little box of information to get one thing straight.

I. Do. Not. Fucking. Care. What. The. Fuck. You. Think. Of. Me.

I don't care.

I really don't. All of you fucking haters can talk shit about me; I DON'T FUCKING CARE. I know who I am, my boyfriend knows who I am, my family knows who I am, and my friends know who I am. That's all I care about. So, if you find it fun to say all of this ridiculous shit about me, please take note that I don't care. Sorry to ruin your fun.

"Haters make me famous." - BOTDF. ♥


By the way, I know who it is that's talking shit about me. :)

/b/♥

So I'm sick and didn't go to school today.
What is my solution?
Sit on /b/.
All.
Day.
THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE NOT BEEN GRACED BY THE CERTAIN ADDICTION THAT IS OF /B/:
http://boards.4chan.org/b/
(:
Oh and I wrote a chapter for Slutgarden. Bane seriouslyy needs to reply to my texts or get on MSN I am bored like woah.
This was soo pointless.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Shit I Say On Teenspot.

So, its 12:22 AM and I am listening to Boondox and talkin' to Bane and I am bored outta my MIIIIIIIIIIIIND.

So I log onto my favourite website,
Teenspot.
:]

My screename is PsychoxCucumber, by the way.

#1: sxyyy_male_model

(I don't think hes really a male model, I really honestly just say fucked up shit in this first one xD.)

im pansexual aslo =]
Hello.
hii hunn
you wanna cyb3r?
sure asl?
15 f al
u a pansexual also?
yes i like vagina and penis and penis/vagina and
vagina/penis and both
o.o
me too!
ok
ever been with herma?
yeah
it was hot
i know i love it
the way its pen!s spun around while my retriever
licked her vag?
mmmmmmmmmmmm
retriever huh? very sexy
yea i likk beastiality
im into anything.. im so fuckin hornii right now im
cravin it all
how would you feel if i got my homosexual goldfish,
bane, in on this and he swam up your urethra?
okkk
u'd likk that?
im into anything that would turn u on
ok what iffffffff
ok what if i brought in this emo kid i know,
clementine.
and he shit on your ass
and then
i took
his penis
and he shoved it up into your ass????
what do u want done to u?
i want you
to take my homosexual goldfish,
eat him,
digest it,
then after you have digested it,
put orange juice,
in your ass,
and squirt it ou,
WHILE
dressed like marilyn manson
u up fo dat sexxy?

-*-

#2: kissthetip
(This dude is pretty cool. xDDD)
hey, bitch
HEY, SLUT
how do you do?
TERRIBLE D:
PROFESSOR FLUFFYBAWLZZ ATE CAPTAIN
DIPSHIT
there's really no need to shout, those aren't even the names of
real people
Professor Fluffybawlzz is my alley cat and Captain
Dipshit is my Siamese fighting fish,
THANK YOU VERY MUCH
no shit
Then why you be yellin at me with all that skeez,
homes?
i'm not prepared for this
You need to get prepared? You need to pre-heat
your oven?
if you really wanna start talking about one another's oven,
this is doomed
I like my oven.
Its warm.
And cozy.
My homosexual goldfish, Bane, lives in there.
you've got a thing for aberrant marine life, haven't you
Yes, yes I do.
I've got an octopus in my rectum.
His name is Larry.
He has a foot fetish.
How about you stick a straw in there and suck it on
out?
I'll take that as a no.
i'd prefer getting killed, but moods change

-*-

#3: rockinabss
(This guy was like "IF YOU WATCH THE OFFICE PRESS 44444" in the chat room. xD.)
I very much enjoy the office.
HAHA i know right
great show
I like to watch it when I am aroused.
The way the one nerdy guy's head is shaped,
Reminds me of a cantaloupe.
haha oh really
Yeah, really.
What? Do you think I am lying to you?
Do you think I am coursing lies through your ears to
be falsely comprehended in your brain?!
But yes
I do enjoy the Office when my hoochie coochie is
moist.
Gerlado,
I thought we had a great relationship going on here.
I can't believe you would REALLY accuse me of
lying to you.
Why would I lie to the man who is carrying my
baby?
I mean...
Lets look back on the good times.
Remember when we re-enacted the scene when
Dwight and Angelina "get it on", except we really did? And you had on a
Chubakka costume and I had on an It costume?
I can't trust you anymore.
I can't believe you would accuse ME of lying to YOU,
Michael.
Luergo...I don't know who you are anymore.
Seriously Alejandro.
Its over.
Goodbye.
I will now put this metal cascet to my brain as I fall
into the "rockin abyss" that will remind me of you.

-*-

#4: sickofthebanning
(This guy was asking for a "DETAILED" and "CREATIVE" roleplay that "didn't lead straight to sex". xDD)
Hello.
hi
You wanna RP?
thats why i posted little paragraph haha
Bahaha, figured.
So you got any scenes?
depends on what your into
Elaborate.
well it depends on what roles you like.
Give me some choices.
I'm not picky ;]
I have roles for almost everything besides r@pe and
And?

Its comin up black.
**blank.
gh .-. animal stuff
the server is blockin it out
12Be@stiality.
there we go
Bahaha.
Uhm...
uhm wat?
How about guy meets girl in store, takes her home
to phuxz0rz her? Sorry I'm not good at coming up with the base of the
scene. xD.
if you want fantasy I have it, if you want regualr bf gf
stuff i have it, I have teacher student and so on.
no
NO
FANTASY
ok, dont yell for real.
Im saying the topics I have
Sorry I got so excited.
yep..
Anyway go on.
thats it
its wither fantasy cliche or what ever
Wither?
?
its either*
What do you mean by fantasy cliche?
aye.. fantasy! or its cliche! bfgf, exes, so on so forth
Ohhh
Fantasy
what about it.
Lets do this shit.
oh boy.
never mind, you have wasted my time, thank you for
trying
NO!
WE'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.
excuse me?
We're meant for each other.
Jesus told me.
okk your freaking me out fo rreal
I just wanted to have a nice winged creature
possibly succubus demonic roleplay with you, sickofthebanning,
BUT NO.
omg your crazy
for real, get some help
Baby, you're the only one that can help me.
all i asked for was detailed and creative girl that
didnt waste my time, that clearly is to much to fucking ask for females.
Whoever said I was a female?
if your not its more reason for you to leave me the
hell alone.
I never said I was a man,though.
God. So naive and close minded.
I'm Jesus.
its time for you to stop talking to me, you have
wasted more then enough of my time.
The Holy Savior, so I have no gender.
your crazy and your not amusing, get a life
I don't have a life anymore.
My name is Edward Cullen.
I'm a vampire.
omg.. im putting you on ignore now
have a nice night.
I LOVE YOU BABY

-*-

lol

Take a Lick Bitch, I'm Poison Fucking Deadly.

SO I MIGHT POSSIBLY PROBABLY AM 90% SURE I AM GOING TO GO SEE BLOOD ON THE DANCE FLOOR AND DOTDOTCURVE(: IN ANN ARBOR ON NOVEMBER 21ST WITH KASEYLUMPYBBY!(:

I am such a fucking fag.

xDD

Babyyyy inject meeee sweetlyyyy.

I am so pumped.

Lmao I'm all happy now.

But Kasey is spending the night tomorrow night, and we're hanging out with Cameron and Charles and going to Underworld.

:]

I am so pumped. xDDDDDD.

Dahvie<3

God I am such a fucking scene kid sometimes -____________-

xD

I'm hopefully getting a diamond necklace and Green Day shirt tomorrow. ;3

Idk.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

I don't know who this is anymore. This...demon that has taken over my body. This possession, it isn't me. Its something else that is inside of me. And I can't get it out. I can't get it out at all. Not even with the bleeding, the changing, the crying, nothing can get this possessor out of my system. This thing. It makes me hurt myself, hurt the ones that love me the most.

And that's what hurts the most.

When I hurt the ones who love me, who just want to help me.

It makes me feel like all I am is a useless waste of oxygen. I mean, if I can't be helped, even by my own mother and best friend and boyfriend, then how the hell am I supposed to help the world?

Isn't helping the world everyone's purpose? Isn't everything someone's meant to do supposed to help the world in some way?

To teach the younger generation, to cure illness (of all kinds), to make something beautiful out of something simplistic?

All of those purposes, help the world.

But what purpose do I have? None. So I shall let my body rot and hope this possessor rots along with it.

100 Facts.

1) I'm changing my name to Lyndsey Laceration on my 18th birthday, because I've been going by that since the 6th grade.

2) Or I might go by Phoenix Cinderburn. Haven't decided. xD

3) I'm absolutely obsessed with my fringe. I will comb it for hours. Literally.

4) My right eye has overactive tear ducts and its constantly watering.

5) I was vegetarian for a year and a half.

6) My favourite kind of sandwich is ham and mayonnaise. :D♥

7) I only wear black eyeliner.

8) I wear a size 3/5 in pants.

9) My favourite colours are hot pink, black, turquoise, purple, lime green, and silver.

10) My boyfriend's eyes are green.

11) I have no idea what I'll do if I don't get accepted into UofM.

12) I'm obsessed with the Young and the Restless.

13) I am the biggest Myspacewhore ever. Sitemodeling, trains, adding sites, etc.

14) I used to want to be a supermodel.

15) Carbonated drinks other than Grape Faygo and Diet Pepsi are icky.

16) I make a beastly macaroni and cheese. :)

17) I've read the book Thirteen Reasons Why four times...in a row. xD.

18) I want to name my daughter Phoenix Marie or Harley Xander.

19) I want to name my son Cody Zebekiah or Aiden Sin.

20) My natural hair colour is a light ash blonde.

21) I'm dying my hair purple soon, and I'm dying it all auburn red in the winter.

22) I only wear black nail polish.

23) I have a picture of an octopus named Larry drawn on my shoe.

24) My boyfriend thinks its funny to push me into piles of leaves. DD:

25) I sing First Soprano.

26) Me and my friend Jessica are doing colorguard next year.

27) I'm really good at tennis o.o

28) I fucking ROCK Gamecube.

29) I have a loose tooth...that's been loose since like March. xD.

30) My favourite movie is House of 1000 Corpses.

31) My second favourite movie is Girl Interrupted.

32) I've watched Thirteen and Painful Secrets on Youtube in parts. xD.

33) I wanna see the movies Prozac Nation and Secretary soo bad. xD.

34) The movie Across the Universe makes me cry hysterically -.-

35) Russia is my love.

36) I'm over Cody Lent.

37) I don't wear coloured contacts, contrary to most peoples' beliefs.

38) My friend Bane lives in Alabama. xD.

39) I hate the sound of plates hitting each other.

40) My favourite sound is of people skateboarding.

41) I love the smell of cigarettes. xD

42) I kinda wanna dye my hair back to blonde.

43) Kyle is piercing my septum. xD.

44) I'm a textfreak.

45) I have a scar on my second knuckle on my left hand of when I burnt my knuckle on my lightbulb when I was on the phone with Brandon Grew in the 6th grade because I was bored XD

46) My grandma dyes my hair.

47) My laptop has a Slipknot sticker, a Megadeth sticker, and a "ITS HACKIN' AWESOME!" (Fred) sticker on it.

48) I drink coffee creamer straight.

49) Most of my Green Day CD's are scratched.

50) My feetsies are always cold. D:

51) I go to Parkside. -.-"

52) I get a spinnybearhug from my bruver Justen everyday after sixth hour.

53) THE STRETCHY DUDE FROM SKY HIGH IS SO HOT OMFGZ.

54) I'm obsessed with the 90s.

55) The other day I caught myself petting my cat and talking to my mom about soap operas while watching a Lifetime movie with her. -.-. xD. Fml.

56) I'm allergic to Penicillin.

57) I have a freckle behind my left ear.

58) I'm Irish.

59) I don't like steak.

60) I fucking LOVE Michigan football.

61) I hate it when people don't return pc4pc.

62) It bothers me when people tell me I looked better blonde.

63) I'm extremely insecure.

64) Too lazy to do 100. xD

I Washed My Hands of Yesterday.

So today was pretty cool.

Jk.

-.-.

Well, my hair looked like shit and wouldn't fucking straighten and I realized I need to fucking cut the left side of my fringe. And then I went to first hour and Ryan basically told me off. Then in Algebra we watched Numb3rs and somebody was texting me, threatening to kill themselves.

...

|:

And then in English I was just fucking bored. And at lunch fucking Shane kept fucking staring at me and it pissed me off. And in Science I was bored out of my mind. And gym sucked because Isaac pissed me OFF. -.-. And then Troubadors was whatever I guess.

AFTERSCHOOL WAS AMAZING. :]

Me and Shelly rode Cameron♥'s bus home with him and then Charles came over and then we met up with Marissa and it was just funfunfunfun :]]

I'm beginning to really like Cam♥. ://

Whatever I guess.

Oh. Btw. I didn't get to fucking put the other colour in my hair.
-.-

I do this weekend though.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Wow...

I am SO fucking done with your greasy, grimey, nicotine breath self.

I HOPE you say the WRONG shit to the WRONG person and they WILL beat your ass.

And I must say.

I find it quite sexy when my boyfriend takes his shirt off and goes running down the street after you to beat your ass...

...and you pussy out.



Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Wonderwall.

Cameron keeps saying I'm prettier than Megan Fox and Kate Hudson.


Reach For Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

>.<"

Everyone is so fucking done with your shit. You lie to me to try to get me to dump my boyfriend, who happens to be your best friend, and then you lie to his face.
And you lie to impress people.
You talk shit about people and then say you love them.
You lie to keep your friends.
I am so fucking done with your lies, Shane.
I have no idea who you are anymore.
And I swear on my fucking dad's grave.
If you fucking hurt Kasey.
I will fucking hurt you.
I have no idea who you are anymore.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Paranoia Has Haunted Me Like A Ghost.

I hate waiting for Cameron to call.
Its so fucking annoying.
Because I'm scared to call him.
But I guess he'll call me whenever he wants to talk to me I guess.
Hmph.
I'm going to call Shane.
He usually can cheer me up |:
Kasey is sorry that my day sucks. Lmao.
So for breakfast I ate a cheeseburger and an Arizona.
>.>
My leg itches.
I went to the Michigan-Iowa game yesterday.
Michigan lost. 28 to 38. -.-
I got a new Michigan hoodie.
Its blue with "MICHIGAN Football" on it in maize with the helmet.
Its pretty fly.
I'm listening to Marcy Playground.
I like them.
Ugh I'm dying my hair today. I have no idea what colour to put in with the black, and I'm going to go get it in like an hour or two.
Ughhhh.
This sucks ass. -.-
I'm gonna call Shane now.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

So Much For My Happy Ending.

So. First, your best friend tells me that you're a player and that you'll play me.

Thennnn, he tells me the opposite.

And I believe him.

Then, he breaks up with my boyfriend behind my back and doesn't let me take it back. Then he tells me he still likes me. Then you ask me out, and me being an oblivious fucking idiot, I say yes. Then he goes out with one of my best friends. Then he tells me you're using me, and that telling me to date you was a "test".

I miss Zach.

Fuck you.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Ravish Me Deadly.

So me and Zach broke up now I have a boyfriend named Cameron.
Nope, I don't think I loved Zach.
Call me a whore I don't fucking care.

I'm going to just fucking rant.

First off. I'm basically fourteen years old, I think I'm quite fucking old enough to sit at my boyfriend's house with our mutual best friend [Shane] and play Skate 3. Second. Shut the fuck up. You're fucking insane. I did NOTHING, literally. I was standing there talking to my mother and the next thing I know you're in my face screaming and yelling talking about how you don't have to put up with my mother's shit. You need to be a man and fucking leave instead of acting like a fucking two year old. Third. I have no idea why I like you so much, but it fucking scares me. :/. Fourth. Stop being a fucking manbitch, and get the fuck over yourself.

Fuck you. Fuck every single one of you.

o.o

I just realized.
I never talked about Jakobi in my blog.
XDD.
Anyway.
Jakobi is a friend of mine I met back in December and he has a girlfriend named Rachel.
Lol.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Talk Dirty to Me.

First Hour - Third Hour: MEAP. -.-. Ewie. I finished Part 1 in like half an hour then I slept. And thennnnnn I finished Part 2 in like ten minutes and wrote Zach♥ a note [which i have yet to give him roflmaoxddlolol] and then we started watching some weird horror movie o.o

Lunch: Sat with Shane, as usual. He told me some shit that I told Kaseylumpybby and now we're like OMFGZZZ.

Fourth Hour - Fifth Hour: I CHILLED WITH SHANE AND CAMERON IN MR. MCCLELLAND'S ROOM. :D. Cameron..:). I totally think he likes me. He made me sosososo happy. I was like "I are fatteh." and he goes "NO!" and I go "Yess." and he goes "You look like you weigh like 90 pounds. Honest." and I was like :). And then he gave me a piggy back ride and Shane texted Shiloh off of my phone. xD.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors): I wanted to just get out of there. xD. Kaylynn taught me how to waterfall braid and french braid. I did this really cool french braid lookin' thing to Lindsay's hair and it looked superduperuber pretty. :).

After School: Zach♥ met me at my locker and then he was superduperuber happy, idk why, and when we were walking to the parking lot he kept smiling and stuff and it made me happy(:. Then I came home and watched this epic Law and Order: SVU episode o.o.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Madina.

Anyone that has had the PLEASURE (sarcasm <.<) of attending Parkside, will know who she is.
She is...-.-
Okay first of all.
In the 7th grade, this is all she accused me of:

-Pants too tight (NOT A RULE AGAINST THAT)
-Pants too bright (NOT A RULE AGAINST THAT EITHER)
-Hair too bright (NOOOO RULES AGAINST HAIR)
-Shorts too short (-.- They were not even short and it was the last day of school.)

And in 8th grade, the only thing shes done (so far) is go up to Zach♥ when he was at my locker and zip tie him when he WASN'T EVEN SAGGING.

Like seriously. She made up the stupidest rule EVER.

You can't wear leggings as pants.

WELL GUESS WHAT.

GUESS.

WHAT.

I WORE LEGGINGS AS PANTS. AND HA! I GOT AWAY WITH IT!

So.

Haha.

Check.

Mate. (:


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

................

Apparently I just listen to bands because they have "weird emo hair cuts" and their music sucks.
Hm.
Lets see.

Green Day doesn't have weird emo hair cuts.

Smashing Pumpkins don't have weird emo hair cuts.

Hawthorne Heights doesn't have weird emo hair cuts.

Flyleaf doesn't have weird emo hair cuts.

Marilyn Manson doesn't have weird emo hair cuts.

Leave me alone.

Sweet Silver Bells.

First Hour (History): I got to school late because I took a shower and dried&&straightened my hair and wore it in braided pigtails with my fringe down. ;3. It looked QUITE delectable, so I think I shall wear it like that again tomorrow. ANYWAY. I had to basically do all the rest of mine and Darius' History project. -.-. xD.

Second Hour (Algebra 1B): Mrs. Sockolowski is helping me out with bringing my grade up to at least a B by Monday. I am sososo grateful. I actually understood what we did today. Lmao

Third Hour (Adv. English): So boring. -.-". We basically went over the WTO out of Broken Chain and Mr. McClelland created the "Invisible Row" xD

Lunch: I sat with Shane, Mariah, Devon, Selina, Darius, and Jared. ;3

Fourth Hour (Science): I got the furthest in my class with the brochure project. xP. Mrs. Allen told me my grade is going up really fast. ;3

Fifth Hour (Gym): WE PLAYED THIS RETARDED FOOTBALL/BASKETBALL GAME AND I FELL LIKE SIXTEEN TIMES.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors): We went over "Fun Fun Fun!" like over and over again and now I hate that song and I want to shoot myself whenever I hear it. ;P. Me, Lindsay, Kaylynn, Kelsey M., Michaela, Kelsey B., Alexis, Leann, and Raylene talked about our ensemble that's singing Carol of the Bells along with the August Burns Red music. ;3.

Scars

So these are my grades.

History - A-

Algebra 1B - E

English - A+

Science - D+

Gym - B+

Troubadors - B

...

Fuck my life.

Harvest King&&Queen.

Is a new tradition at Parkside.

There is going to be a dance this November, called the Harvest Dance [lmao ik lame]

And you can nominate Harvest King and Harvest Queen.

All of my friends nominated me and Zach, and everyone thinks we have a good chance.


Yay(:♥

Beautiful.

EVERYONE is beautiful.
Absolutely everyone.
Whether you be tall, short, big, thin, black, white, hispanic, asian, blonde haired, brown haired, blue haired.
You're beautiful.
It doesn't matter how much you weigh, what colour your hair is, if you have piercings, if you have scars.
You are ALL beautiful.
Every single one of you.
So,
During the week of October 3rd to October 10th, tell everyone they're beautiful.
We all need it.

-.-"

People piss me off.
Seriously.
I hate everyone -.-
Except like...
Five people XD

Untitled.

I am so sorry.
I'm sorry I chose some dick over you, who left my life a month later.
I'm sorry I doubted you.
I'm sorry I HURT you.
I'm so sorry.
Now everyday, I wish I would have made the other choice.
I would be so happy right now.
And now we never talk.
Now the last time I talked to you, it was you yelling at me.
I'm sorry.

Don't You Think Its Funny?

Don't you think its funny that the person you loved is the person you hate?


Don't you think its funny the you don't tell someone who is supposed to be one of your best friends anything anymore?



Don't you think its funny the one that got away never talks to you...yet you don't go a day without thinking about him?



Don't you think its funny you sit alone for the majority of the day, when you used to be in the crowd?



Don't you think its funny you avoid looking in mirrors, when everyone tells you how "gorgeous" you are?



Don't you think its funny you shove needles in your face so people pay attention to that, and not how you look?



Don't you think its funny you dread going to sleep?



Don't you think its funny you dread waking up?



Don't you think its funny you want to sell yourself to avoid love?



Don't you think its funny he can love someone one minute, and hate them the next?



Ha.

Ha.

Ha.

Shes Outside Counting Stars♥

^^Lyrics from Stars by Hum^^
I cannot find that song on Frostwire, and I'm like obsessed with it.
Soo. I'm aggravated.
=.=.
Tomorrow I'm going to the Crossing with Kasey&&Lindsay and possibly Zach♥, then going back to my house and getting ready for the dancee[:
There is this superduperuber (<-- my word.) cutee top at Dot's.
And its like made out of black fishnet, which I know sounds weird for Dot's, but its cuteeee. :]
I'M MAKING ZACH♥ GO TO THE DANCE BECAUSE I WANNA GRIND.
xD.
Lmao.
I. Am not. A whore.
xD.
LMFAO<333
Today was good.
In first hour I got an A on my test.
And Ryan made me laugh(:
And then in second hour I came to realize I REALLY need to focus on my math.
And then in third I drew my epic drawing for my project.
And then at lunch I sat with Darius, Mariah, Jarred, Barry, Logan, Selina, and thisonechick. It was funny. They had hummus at school and Jarred ate some of it and gagged and thought he was going to puke.
Okay so.
I'm texting Zach.
Me: So whatsup, buttercup?(:
Him: Fixing the clutch on this dirt bike.

...
...
...
...
...
IS IT BAD.
THAT I FOUND THAT.
HOT?!
xDDDDDDDD
My grandma says it is.
Kellyy and Kasey think otherwise(;
Mwahahaha.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.
xoxo.

(P.S. If you don't like the pictures of my "disgusting" piercings on Facebook, don't look at them. And they're NOT infected. At all(;. So quit being jealous and stfu. :])

Idgaf.

If we haven't been together that long.

Idgaf if we've been on and off since May.

Idgaf if you're not perfect.

Idgaf if you mess up.

Idgaf if I mess up.

I am falling so hard for you, Zachery Allard.

And trust me.

I KNOW I say this about A LOT of people.

But this time I mean it.

I'm sorry it took me so long to realize it.

I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you.

I'm sorry for the time when I told you to get over me.

I am...so sorry.

Baby, I'm going to make this all better.

I promise.

xoxo,
Angelbaby♥

Sexiest. Man. Alive.

^^^^^^^
THAT'S MY DREAM MAN.

|:

I really wish I was a Freshman.
I have like no friends on my team.
The majority of the friends I have in my grade are on 8-1. :/
I couldn't be on 8-1.
Even though I requested it. ://.
And then all my other friends are Freshman or Sophomores.
And I have like three in the seventh grade.
:/.
I have nobody to go with to formal because EVERYONE knows me and Zachery are not going to be together like eight months from now |:
&&Even if we are hes not going to formal.
And Justen will probably go with some pretty girl.
And so will Carter.
And Lindsay, Sarah, Kayleigh, and all of them will all go together.
I'm probably not going to my 8th grade formal |:

You.

Are such an emotionless little prick.

I Am Not Afraid To Keep On Living.

First Hour (History): WAS SO EASY. I sat by Darius, as usual, and coloured a picture of John Adams and it was very nicely coloured. ;3

Second Hour (Algebra 1B): I do not know why. But I ALWAYS get SUPER tired in that class. I think its because Mrs. Sokolowski turns the lights off. o.o. Me and Darius talked about raping each other.

Third Hour (English): We did our TOD's and then Mr. McClelland just kinda...ranted. xD. He told us a bunch of more Finger Freddy [roflmaoxDDDlolol] stories and they were really funny. ;3

Lunch: I sat with Shane, Mariah, Sam, Darius, Brandon, and somebody else who I can't remember. Shane was talking about how hes "fighting" Justen, Carter, and Zach on Wednesday. I am so pumped to watch that shit.

Fourth Hour (Science): We did vocab. It was so boring. I wanted to shoot myself.

Fifth Hour (Gym): OHMYGOD. KSO. We had to do this retarded exercise when you jog and then you walk and then you have to drop to the floor in a "plank" formation. Me and Jessica played the penis game and Mr. Rieman didn't say anything. xDDD.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors): Lindsay. Pissed me off. So bad. Okay so, I'm in Soprano 1, right? But idk why but Mrs. Miskowski is making me sing Soprano 2 on "Johnny Has Gone For a Soldier", right? And its me, Lindsay, Raylene, Kaylynn, and some 7th grader singing Soprano 2 for this song. And Lindsay is like "Lyndsey you're flat." I'm like "I know." because I seriously think I'm slightly tone deaf because all last year I was ALWAYS just a little bit sharp and now I'm a little bit flat CONSTANTLY. And then she almost made me cry when she went "Oh my God Soprano 2's just sounded so pretty! Well at least me and Raylene did." GOD SHE MAKES ME SO MAD. >.<

Then I walked with Zach into the parking lot and it made me happy then I came home and slept then when my mum got home we went to TJ Maxx and I got new shit then I came home and got on the computer. >.>

Picture day is tomorrow. -.-


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.
xoxo

I miss you.
RIP.

Please Stand Up.

Eminem♥

First Hour (History): We did these map things and I totallyy know Ryan has a crush on me now. xD.

Second Hour (Algebra 1B): I nearly fell asleep, again. -.-

Third Hour (English): I totally didn't have my essay/timeline/interview project done. |:. I get 10% taken off. Great.

Lunch: I sat with *thinks* Mariah, Olivia, shitshitshit can't think of her name...SYDNEY, Deliah, and...that one chick. Shane is suspended =.="

Fourth Hour (Science): SOOOOO boring. I have like 979792876 assignments to turn in. -.-

Fifth Hour (Gym): Flexibility testing. I got the highest score. :P

Sixth Hour (Troubadors): I hate the new teacher. kthnxbai.

Tonight Will Be The Night That I Will Fall For You.

First Hour (History): We watched a movie about the French Indian War and it was all gory and jawns. Mr. Riedel was SUPER nice and gave me all the answers on the packet that they went over yesterday, since I wasn't there. Ryan and Darius entertained me. xD.

Second Hour (Algebra 1B): We had to do this thing, and I did NOT remember how to do half of it. Actually, I'm supposed to be doing it right now. -.-. Fml.

Third Hour (English): Mr. McClelland had a meeting so he had Mrs. Spencer, the teacher next door, have her door open, which is adjacent to his room, so she could make sure we were quiet. I talked to Nate&&Darius all hour :]

Lunch: Me, Shane, and Mariah went up to this seventh grade table (Roflmao I keep forgetting Mariah is a 7th grader) and Shane was talking about cum and it was funny...LMAO CUM ISN'T SPELLCHECKED XDDD, mwahahaha, I love him♥

Fourth Hour (Science): We had to go over the Scientific Method and Mrs. Allen was being really nice o.o

Fifth Hour (Gym): I didn't feel like dressing, so Jessica&&Raylene&&Shelly didn't either. xD. It was "choice day" so me&&Jessica&&Isaac all walked the track and we were just talking and it made me soo happy.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors): Mrs. Mokolowski was talking about how we're going to go see one or two musicals this year and I think we should go see American Idiot on Broadway but everyone else is all omfgz Wicked!! -.-.

After school I came home and my grandma made me pancakes and I fell asleep in the chair and had a nightmare about creepers. xD


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.
xoxo

D:

idek

Here's To Your Perfect Weapon.

Idek why, but I've been listening to BOTDF A LOT lately.
&&Avenged Sevenfold.
o.o
RIPPED HER HEART OUT RIGHT BEFORE HER EYESSSS.
A Little Piece of Heaven by A7X♥
Now I'm listening to Perfect Weapon by BVB :3
Okay anyway.
I didn't go to school today because I had an allergic reaction&&sinus infection.
-.-
Fml.
xD.
OF COURSE. I GET A SINUS INFECTION RIGHT AFTER I PIERCE MY NOSE.
-__________________-"
Gawshhh.
But yeah. I like my nose piercing :3
Its quite delectable :33
Shiloh was telling me today not to hang out with the weird kids at Jackson High.
Well, I really like weird. So I think I will :]
Mwahaha.
OH YEAH.
I'm dying my hair dark blue or purple soon :}}
Its going to be mainly whatever colour I pick&&black.
Its quite hard to explain, but its gonna be so cool. o.o
&&I'm cutting my hair tonight.
Because its pissing me off. -.-
Hmph.
So like.
I really liked this kid in my History class.
But hes dating Chantel now. |:
Hmph. :/
It kind of made me sad. Because when me and her were like really good friends back in 5th&&6th grade, whatever guys I liked ALWAYS liked her.
:/
Anyway.
I've lost seven pounds. I am so happy.
Shiloh thinks I have an eating disorder because I never eat.
I'm just like never hungry anymore.
Like yesterday. I woke up at about 6:20 after staying up until 3:30 the night before, didn't eat anything. Went to school, didn't eat anything except a bite of Shane's breadstick at lunch. Came home, ate like a fourth of a half pound double cheeseburger and like ten fries, slept until eight, then didn't eat anything.
I haven't eaten anything today either.
I'm just...not hungry I guess.
I do NOT have an eating disorder.
Its not like I'm not letting myself eat.
Right...?
God...now this is worrying me. I don't need to develop an eating disorder.
That would be great. One more problem. -.-
I'm also finally getting into therapy soon.
With an actual psychiatrist, not some shitty counselor. -.-


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.
xoxo

100 Things About Lyndseyboo!(:

1) My full name is Lyndsey Elizabeth Kazcha McNitt.
2) I'm thirteen.
3) My lucky number is 47.
4) I write novels and fanfiction.
5) I've been hurt way too much.
6) I really dislike the colour beige o.o
7) I have four friends that I've never met in person that I talk to everyday. [Kellyy♥, Corey, Jon (aka Dezreki), and Allen.]
8) I've been rockin dat Myspace since I was 11 ;DD
9) I'm listening to "Only A Northern Song" by The Beatles right now. :D
10) I've loved punk rock music since 6th grade. [REAL punk, not that Good Charlotte bullshit.]
11) I have the biggest crush on Gwen Stefani. :}D
12) My natural hair colour is light blonde.
13) I'm five feet tall.
14) I really enjoy skinny jeans.
15) Nearly EVERYONE calls me Lyndz at one point.
16) I have 7 "brothers";: Justen, Darius, Carter, Josh, Jakobi, Michael, and Clayton♥
17) I've known several of my guy friends since kindergarten<3
18) I only truly HAAAAATTTTTEEE one person, Sam Willis. [Lmao]
19) I REALLY like classic Disney movies. My favourite are Alice In Wonderland, Sleeping Beauty, and Cinderella.
20) I'm in love with Otis B. Driftwood♥ [roflmao, google him.]
21) My eyes are blue.
22) The first song I ever learned on guitar was "Good Riddance" by Green Day♥
23) I've loved Green Day since I was eight years old.
24) My favourite colour is pink.
25) My favourite animals are hedgehogs, cats, zebras, dolphins, and octopi.
26) I've dyed my hair a total of nine times.
27) I'm dying my hair dark blue soon.
28) I only own one belt and its rainbow studs. ;D
29) I can't decide on a bridge piercing or a septum piercing.
30) I'm getting my belly button&&another piercing for my birthday.
31) My birthday is December 29th.
32) Any talk of 2012 scares the shit of me.
33) I used to be OBSESSED with losing my virginity. D:
34) I love Deathnote.
35) When I got my Monroe pierced, which lead to Angelbites, I didn't even really want it, I actually wanted Spiderbites.
36) I've only ever broken up with one person in person. I usually do it online or in a Myspace message. D:. xD.
37) I'm really uncomfortable with the way I look.
38) The movie Across the Universe makes me cry -.-
39) I really really really love Russia.
40) 1 CAN 5p33k 1337 And Y0U m07H3RfUX0r3r2 cA'n7 r0FLMA0jk
41) The first song I learned on piano was "Welcome to the Black Parade" by My Chemical Romance.
42) I get sinus infections all the time -.-"
43) I get really bad allergies when the seasons change >.<
44) I really do NOT like carbonated drinks, which is why the only pop I drink is Diet Pepsi or Faygo.
45) The song "I Wanna Hold Your Hand" by The Beatles makes me cry hysterically -.-
46) I get hit on a lot. :P
47) I've only ever met one person who was my exact type and everything, and I fucked that up, and now I never talk to them. >.<
48) My favourite Pokemon are Ponyta, Eve (Or is it Evie? I forget.), Squirtle, and Pikachu! :D
49) I like to dancee. ;D
50) I wrote all over my door with Sharpie about two weeks ago with Shilizzo.
51) I hate the bands Disturbed&&Linkin Park. xD.
52) I've been OBSESSED with horror movies since I was like 6, thanks to my grandmama♥♥, and it really scared my mum. xDDD.
53) I'm athletically retarded except for gymnastics and cheerleading. xDD.
54) I'm REALLY flexible. ;D. Lmao.
55) I'm ridiculously close to my grandparents.
56) My grandpa actually told me I'm his favourite. ;D
57) One of the most amazing moments of my life was at the Green Day song and everyone there was singing along "Hey Jude" with Billie Joe.
58) Billie's hair was blonde at the concert I went to, and it made me mad because I like him best with black hair. xD.
59) Idk why, but everyone likes to call me Lyndseyboo. xDD.
60) I've been using Teenspot since I was 10. xDDDD. My first screename was hot_blonde_cheerleader or something like that.
61) My current Teenspot username is PsychoxCucumber xD
62) I have THEEEE coolest posters in my room ;D
63) I ordered a Sid Vicious and Nancy Spungen poster off of AY&P and I never got it. -.- It was only $7 though. xDDD.
64) I really can NOT skateboard. D:
65) My first Green Day song was Boulevard of Broken Dreams♥
66) I was too lazy to do 100, I might later. xD.

Boom Boom Boom In My Hotel Room.

First Hour (History): We coloured our little things&&I wore Ryanbaby's hoodie. Hes so nice[:. And cute[:. >_>. <_<. >_________>. ANYWAY. My nose ring hurt. Really bad. &&Ryan and Darius told me they liked it, which made me happy. (I pierced my nose lol)

Second Hour (Algebra 1B): I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHAT CLASS IM IN XDDD. We had to do a pre-test packet thing, and I was partners with Darius. I basically did the entire thing and he ranted about shit. xD. I then proceeded to fall asleep when I was done on top of Darius and like somehow use Ryan's hoodie as a pillow. o.o.

Third Hour (English): Iwassofuckingtired. -.-. ShaneLove walked me to class, I was happy. You know what I realized? Since I work fast, and Mr. McClelland gives us A LOT of time to work, its a pretty damn easy class. Mostly just listening to him rant&&be all funny like. xD. Hes my favourite teacher<3.

Lunch: I sat with Shane and Mariah. Shane was being funnyy[:<3. Mariah is like a really cool 7th grader O.O. xD.

Fourth Hour (Science): I DID THE MOST BEASTLY DRAWING EVERRRR FOR MY LAB RULES PAPER. OH MY GOD IT WAS SO AMAZING. IT WAS MY LITTLE ANIME EMO KIDS AND IT WAS SO EPIC OH MY GOOOOOD. xD. I ranted to Stephanie and Francesca about Codydouchebagdickface. -.-

Fifth Hour (Gym): -___________-. We're doing fitness testing, right? Well. I don't know anyone in my group, except Mohammad, Alexis Rogers, and Alexis Renkin. I don't talk to any of them, except Alexis Rogers, but only in choir. And we had to do these stupid shuttle run things. We have to run a mile tomorrow, I think me&&Jessica might skip class. xP.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors): -.-. Miss Mokolowaskijgouthgouhjoyhj pissed me the fuck off. I got fucking ten fucking stupid ass participation points taken away because I was to the point of crying so I REALLY was NOT in the mood to sing. At all. -.-. But then she kinda made up for it because this time the choir teacher of this year is actually using our ideas, unlike Mr. Burnette. She said she'll think about us doing Carol of the Bells to August Burns Red's musical rendition, which was mine&&Kaylynn's idea. &&SHE SAID WE COULD DO AT LEAST ONE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS SONG AT THE CONCERT OMFGZ I WAS SO HAPPYZZ. After class me&&Lindsay walked down to the Teen Health Center so she could turn some papers in&&I took a Suicide and Depression paper thing because the girl on the front was really pretty. xD.

So then Jason picked me up&&we got Wendys, I got a half pound double cheeseburger because those things are the SHIIIIITTTT<333333333, and then in the car we were talking about suicide&&the people he knew that killed themselves. O.O. And then we came home and watched The Sopranos, which I love. O_O. I wish they didn't cancel it, it makes me sad. -.-. So then I fell asleep in the chair and slept until eight thirty, then got really pissed off.

Oh&&Lumpy looked SOOO pretty today, idgaf what the hell she says, she looked pretty. :33


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

So Maybe, You're Gonna Be The One That Saves Me.

First Hour (History): I sat with Darius&&Ryan. Mr. Riedel FINALLY gave me my locker. And I have the combo memorized already (45-23-17 ;D) and it made me happy. I totallyyy think Ryan has a crush on me. xDD. He is cute. {: But hes one of my brother's. :}}

Second Hour (Algebra Geometry Thingie);: I sat with Darius, per usual. And I ranted to him about Erika. xDDD. He just nodded the entire time. Then we did this graph thing. WHICH I have to finish in a minute. o.o

Third Hour (English);: Mr. McClelland is by far my favourite teacher. Hes reallyy funny. He accused me and Darius of being madly in love and then asked me all these piercing questions. xD

Lunch;: I went around with Mariah asking 7th graders if they had STDs and told an entire table of them that I was going to chop them up and eat them in a casserole. xD. Shane wasn't there, so today was pretty boring.

Fourth Hour (Science);: Safety video. Soo boring. xP

Fifth Hour (Gym);: We did fitness testing and I did 41 sit ups in a minute. I felt so fucking badass. xDD. RAYLENE HAS THE NICEST BOOBS. Roflmaoo.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors);: We finallyyy have the parts down on onr of our songs. xPP

So then Jason picked me up&&I came home and ate chicken nuggets and took a shower and talked to Cody.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Doing This Shit Again.

First Hour (History);: I sat with Darius. We watched shit about 9/11. I got all depressed. Kept thinking about Cody.

Second Hour (Algebra/Geometry Class Thing);: I sat with Darius, again. Was depressed the entire hour -.-

Third Hour (English);: We had an assembly for the fundraiser thingie.

Lunch;: I sat with...fuck...whats her name...some 7th grader that Shane knows&&I went up to these 7th graders and was ranting about how much I hated seventh grade.

Fourth Hour (Science);: Mrs. Allen seriously pissed me the fuck off. She keeps fucking changing the seats to match her fucking retarded Last Name to Seat Number system. I fucking hate her class and idgaf if I fucking fail it. I'm dropping out anyways when I turn 18. xP

Fifth Hour (Gym);: We got our lockers. Mine is by Raylene&&Jessica's. I'm not switching out anymore because I have it with;: Raylene, Jessica, Carrie, Shelly, Issac [this badass 7th grader me and Jessica are friends with xD], Nate, and a bunch of other people. Then after we got our lockers girls got to just sit around&&Raylene gave birth to her sweatshirtbaby, Aquafina.

Sixth Hour (Troubadors);: -.- People piss me off. Me&&Kaylynn came up with these amazingggg ideas for winter&&spring concert and its going to be amazing. >.>

So yeah. I fucking hate 8th grade. All of the fucking 7th graders are like little ass scene kids and it pisses me off to no fucking end. >.<. Kasey&&Issac are the only ones that DON'T piss me off. Like seriously man -.-


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Help.

I can't do this without you with me. I can't live like this anymore. I'm not happy. Sure, I look happy. But I'm not. I was so happy when I was with you. I just want that again.


Please.

Goals for Eighth Grade.

School tomorrow. -.-

1) Stay with Jay♥ the entire year. [Fucking failure. :/]

2) Get bridge or septum pierced.

3) Get belly button pierced.

4) Get gauges to 1".

5) Put 10 different colours in my hair.

6) Stay the same size or get smaller. [Smaller :P]

7) Get psychologically better.

8) Get out of PE. -____- [Staying in PE :}D]

9) Get 3000 Myspace friends.

10) Get along with mostly everyone.

11) Get a tattoo. [Yes, this is actually a possibility for me.]

12) Grow my hair out.

13) Finish writing five novels.

14) Finally finish reading the House of Night Series.

15) Read Anthoney Keidis' autobiography, "Scar Tissue".

16) Read Marilyn Manson's autobiography, "Long Hard Road Out of Hell".

17) Read all of Anne Rice's books.

18) Open up the back of my right Angelbite.

19) Get a hedgehog :3

20) Get two hedgehogs :33

21) Go with Jay♥ to finally see The Last Exorcism.

22) Watch Nightmare Before Christmas&&Edward Scissorhands with Jay♥ since hes never seen both. xD.

23) Be on 20 Sitemodeling Sites.

24) Start going to 789 regularly.

25) Do a Flyleaf cover on Youtube.

26) Watch Across the Universe with Alyssa.

27) Get in a fight&&beat someone's ass. xDD.

28) Make new friends.

29) Be nicer to Gerbick. xD.

30) Get a Sea of Treachery shirt.

31) Go to three big concerts.

32) Become more spontaneous.

33) Stop obsessing over things in the past.

34) Be genuinely happy.

35) Get an A+, A, or A- in every class on all of my report cards.

36) Do something amazing in English.

37) Stop collecting razors, box cutters, knives, etc.

38) Get paler o.o

&&I'll add more later.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

15 Albums That Changed Your Life.

Me&&Jason were talking about this.
Here are mine;:

American Idiot - Green Day

Nevermind the Bollocks - Sex Pistols

Either/Or - Elliott Smith

Golden Age of Grotesque - Marilyn Manson

Nimrod - Green Day

Kerplunk! - Green Day

Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge - My Chemical Romance

Suicide Season - Bring Me The Horizon

Nevermind - Nirvana

If Only You Were Lonely - Hawthorne Heights

The Silence In Black and White - Hawthorne Heights

Rocket to Russia - Ramones

Antichrist Superstar - Marilyn Manson

The Famemonster - Lady Gaga

Sawngz. [I totally jocked this from Lyssie]

Mmkay. Songs that mean something to me. Lets go.

I Wanna Hold Your Hand - The Beatles

Heels Over Head - Boys Like Girls

Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day

Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day

Tonight - FM Static

Cleaning Out My Closet - Eminem

Wonderwall - Oasis

Straight to Video - Mindless Self Indulgence

Tainted Love - Marilyn Manson

Minority - Green Day

Redundant - Green Day

Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds - The Beatles

Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day

Speed Trials - Elliott Smith

Pretty Vacant - The Sex Pistols

My Cat - Jack Off Jill

I Miss You - blink-182

Chelsea Smile - Bring Me The Horizon

Alerion - Asking Alexandria

Not Good Enough For Truth In Cliche - Escape the Fate

No One Knows - Green Day

&&yeah theres more. I'm bored. :P


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

x]

So today I got clothes.
-Black skinny jeans
-Grey skinny jeans
-Denim skinny jeans
-Black sweater
-White hoodie
-Grey hoodie
-Moccasins
-Black suede boots
-Black Veil Brides shirt
-Beanie

&&Then I'm going again tomorrow.
Exciting.

So, Jay's phone is a whore. Or its mine. o.o
Idk.
But like, I'm not getting his texts.
So, I tried IMing him on AIM because it said he was online on his phone.
And he didn't reply. :|
Hmph. I might call him later.
Hes with his best friend though.
BUT!
I get to see him tomorrow[:
I have no idea what to wear.
But I do know I will be wearing these moccasins.
They are very comfortable.
They're really cute too.
They're like...tan with this brown suede bow thingie on them and brown stitching.
I was going to get this purple&&black flannel shirt but my mummy♥ told me I wouldn't be able to wear it right away.

OH MY GOD FML.

Okay so.

When I got my original 8th grade schedule, I was on 8-3. -.-"
And it was like this;:

History
Algebra 1
Science
English
PE [ew]
Trubadours

So I was like "no. -.-" because of 8-3 because Mackenzie is on that team.

SO!

My mum called the school&&tried switching me to 8-1, well, there was a waiting list so I'd have to be on 8-3 for a month, then I'd be on 8-1.

She knew I'd hate that.

So, I'm on 8-2. Except for the first three days, I'll be on 8-3. -________-

Grr.

BUT I DID MAKE TRUBADOURS!! ;DDD

Which makes me happy.

Since I was supposed to be in it for 7th grade anyways. -_______________-

Jay gets his license soon.

He has his car and everything, he just has to get the money for his license.

&&I think hes getting it soon.

Which means seeing my baby♥ more(:

It sucks he lives a half an hour away. :|

Like majorly.

:/

It will all work out.



Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

...

I miss you.
I miss calling you my big brother.
I miss being able to tell you everything.
I miss your fail attempts of hooking me up with your friends.
I miss listening to you practice your screaming on the phone.
I miss you arguing with me for two hours over Greeley Estates.


I'm sorry I fucked up.
I'm sorry I betrayed you.
I'm sorry I lied.
I'm so sorry.
I just want it back.
You being in my phone as BigBruder! and me being in your phone as LilSista!.
You giving me piggy back rides at Nixon.
I miss you, brother.
I miss you so much.

The Innocent Can Never Last.

WAKEEE ME UPPPPP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDSS.
So.
Me&&Jaycookie♥ decided on a song.

Tonight by FM Static[x

I love him so much(:

Oh, if you couldn't tell, we're back together. Lololololololol(:

Tomorrow night we might go see The Last Exorcism, but we're going to the fireworks for suree on Saturday[x

:/ I'm sad though...

He lives half an hour away...

And I won't get to see him as much as I got to see Matt...

But, we're going to make it work.

Him&&I have developed a system, and I need to talk to my mum about it.

I'm sure she'll agree.

Maybe. >_______>

She'll need to meet him first.

ANYWAY.

:D

Enough about my baby.

I GO SCHOOL CLOTHES SHOPPING TOMORROW AND SATURDAY! :}DDDD

PAAAANNNTTTTSSS.

(:

I is happeh. :]

&&I'm getting my extensions soon.

(:

My hair is gonna be looooong.

Which excites me.

So. I got really sad when I was with Shiloh today.

I started thinking about gymnastics.

And...I miss it a lot.

It was my PASSION.

And knowing I can't go back?

Sucks.

Ugh my eyes are watering up.

I'm gonna go now.



Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Vampires.

I've been obsessed with them since I was like...six or seven.
Not because of the Twilight Saga.
Because I've always thought they were amazing. Just...the idea of living an immortal life and feeding off of the life substance of others...fascinates and romances me.
Am I weird?
I think so.
But when people say "Oh you just like vampires because of Twilight." IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING MAD.
>=|
I have a Dracula, original with Bela Lugosi, movie poster in my room. The original Dracula, by Bram Stoker, book. And I've seen plenty of vampire movies.
And Twilight is not depicted correctly.
Vampires are NOT supposed to fucking sparkle in sunlight.
They are supposed to melt >.<
The books were sooo much better. -.-
And the "vegetarian" vampire thing?
Laaaammmeee.
Grr.
I mean, don't get me wrong. I love Twilight&&I'm Team Edward/Jasper.
But I hate how they depicted vampires. (-.,,.-) <-- Angry vampire.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

*facepalm*

You're fifteen, a dude, and way bigger than a five foot 110 pound 13 year old girl.
And you're gonna punch me in the face.
Fucking idiot. -.-


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

&&When You're All Alone.

Dear You,

You mean the world to me, every single day I think of you.

I can't go a minute without think of what would have been, what could be.

I constantly seek your approval on everything.

I would give anything for you to be happy, even if it meant I would live a life of eternal loneliness and depression. Deep down, I would be happy you were happy.

I haven't felt for anyone like this before. I could be having the worst day imaginable, but the littlest things you say can make it the best. I look up into the sky, knowing you're under the same one as me.

I anticipate the moment that everything will be right, perfect, like its meant to be.

And until that moment.

I'll wait.


1433♥,
Lyndseycookie.

Sorry.

Cody Michael Lent: I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for forcing you to take me back back in January. I'm sorry for making you feel like shit. I'm sorry for blaming you for my depression. I'm sorry.

Shiloh Madison Utterback: I'm sorry for being the worst friend imaginable. I'm sorry for getting you in trouble all the time. I'm sorry for putting you in the worst situations. I'm sorry for lying to you. I'm sorry for putting terrible people before you. I'm sorry for hurting you.

Kyle Alexander Basile: I'm sorry for lying to you. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for everyone putting the blame on you. I'm sorry for the drama I caused. I'm sorry.

Lindsey Jean Cole: I'm sorry for walking out on you. I'm sorry for not making our friendship last. I'm sorry for talking about you behind your back. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm so sorry.

Jakobi Salisbury: I'm sorry for going behind your back. I'm sorry for lying to you. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for rejecting you. I'm sorry for talking about your fiancee. I'm sorry for hurting you the second time. I'm so fucking sorry for ruining our friendship.

Cassaundra Marie Matiska: I'm sorry for putting you through everything. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for getting you dragged into my problems.

Alyssa Maureen Lyons: I'm sorry for everything.

Eric Anderson: I'm sorry for existing.

Soo.

I wrote the first lyrical document I have written in over a year.

Take away, take away, everything I ever had.
Take away, take away, everything you ever said when I got sad.

That made me happy,
that made my heart glad,
that I had you.
Baby you know its true.

Take away, take away....

Everything I ever had.
That I remember when I get sad.
To inject my veins with a false happiness,
That I have never had.

Take away, take away,
These memories of you.
Take away, take away,
All these feelings I have for you.

Your dark brown eyes,
Your long hair.

Take it away.

Take it all away.

Baby I need you.

So. It sucks.
But its a start to a possibly decent song.
It sounds better sang instead of written down.


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

Paranoia.

I have it really bad. -.-
I just sat here scared shitless for like twenty minutes for the stupidest reason ever.
And no. I'm definitely not going to tell you, shitheads. -.-
Sorry. I'm in a really bad mood right now.
I'm worried about Cassie.
:/


Reach For The Stratosphere,
Lyndsey.

(:

So.
Last night was the Green Day concert. It was pretty epic.
I went with CassieeBabee♥.
There was the cutest guy EVER in front of us.
He had on these tiiiiggghhht purple skinnies&&muh Asking Alexandria shirt.
&&He had flippy brown hair.
He was just reallyy cute.
Cassie thinks otherwise -.-
Lmao.
There will be pictures up on the Myspace&&Facebook tomorrow.
Last night I stayed with Cassie&&I am again tonighttt[:
We went swimming.
It was pretty hilarious. Squirting out water&&being Waterbenders and such.
I've been texting Kyle since last night.
:|
Ohhh well.
Jay♥ is at his soccer game right now.
I reallyy hope they win.
He needs to cheer up. :|
In the car on the way back from the concert last night me&&Cassie♥ called Jay♥, Bobby, and Matt to get them to admit they're attractive.
Only Bobby did. -______________-"
But yeah, I've been talking to Kyle.
I'm starting to miss him I guess.
:/
He's being really sweet.
But whatever, y'know?
I just wish him&&I could've worked out.
We would have made a cute couple, I think.
Hes all tall, blue-haired, and brown-eyed. I'm all short, black-haired, and blue-eyed.
&&He has snakebites and I have angelbites.
So it would be adorable.
Idgaf what you say.
He was going to go to the concert, but he didn't.
OH MY GOD.
So, we had lawn tickets, right? And we were standing by all of these guys&&they started moshing and bumped into this girl and she punched them and told them to suck her dick.
I gave her a highfive.

Oh&&I have a quote for you all.

"This is not a party. This is a celebration, for being alive." - BillieBear♥

He actually said that at the concert[:

Kbai.

Liar.

You lied.
You lied to me.
You lied to yourself.
And after all you put me through.
You're just gonna take it all back?
Everything that meant anything to me at all?
You fucking loser.

:|

I have a Green Day concert in less than two hours.
And I was all pumped&&excited&&happy.
Until I got a Myspace alert on my phone.
"Erika Lent has commented your photo!"
-.-
Okay listen up sweets.
You've been dating him for like two weeks, and he is NOT the type of person to go for girls putting his last name as theirs on Myspace.
:]
-.-
Now I'm all depressed.
I don't think he ever loved me, honestly. :|
Anyway, on to happier things.
I'm going to the concert with CassieeBabee♥
&&BrendanFellowOliSykesLover will be there.
&&Some other people I know.
&&Someone I do not want to see, whom I saw in Hot Topic yesterday. -_________-
I GOT THE MOST BEASTLY SOCIAL DISTORTION SHIRT EVAAARRR.
Its black and has a skeleton with a top hat and says Social Distortion.
Lmao.
So yeah.
I'll have the concert pictures up on Myspace♥&&Facebook.


With All The Stars In The Night Sky,
Lyndsey.

Jessi Slaughter.

You are a fail.
Okay, if some of you don't know who she is, shes this little 11 year old wannabe "scene" girl who was trying to become famous on Youtube, Tumblr, Myspace, all that good stuff.
Well, she decided to tell people Dahvie Vanity<3333333, the lead singer of Blood On The Dance Floor who is like 23 and NOT a pedophile, that he came up to where she lived and had sex with her. &&That he called her house all the time and all this shit. Well, a genius asked her to give proof, a video of them on the phone, a comment, etc. She got all mad about it and people started calling her out. Then she proceeded to make a video saying she was going to "pop a glock" in everyone's skulls and make a "brain slushy" and she hoped everyone would "get AIDS and die.".
Okay hun.
First of all, I don't think anyone gives a shit what you say. Second of all, Dahvie Vanity is a nice guy so I do believe you maybe got one comment from him but I HIGHLY doubt you had sex with him. xDDDD. Even if he was a pedophile, he wouldn't fuck you.
Okay, on with the story.
So then badasses like moi got on Tumblr and 4Chan's /b/ board and started posting her real name, address, telephone number, etc. and sent call girls off Craigslist to her house and pizza and prank called her. xDD.
SO THEN.
Her dad made this seriously hilarious video on Youtube. Search "you dun goofed original" on Youtube, it is fucking hilarious. &&He tells people hes going to call the "cyberpolice" and have them "arrested" and all this shit.
AND THEN SHE GOT PUT ON GOOD MORNING AMERICA.
I mean, that is just fucking ridiculous.
&&She was legitamtely 11 at the time, I think she may be 12 now, idk. But seriously man that would be as bad as me saying I seriously fucked Billie Joe Armstrong or some shit like that lmao. And shes a total poser, too. I mean, she just is a camerawhore and a liar. And God forbid the authorities actually did believe her saying she had sex with Dahvie, he would be put on trial, and that would be awful. I just hope no more little wannascenes do shit like this, because it gets annoying after a while.
Kbai.


With All The Stars In The Night Sky,
Lyndsey.

...

Do.
Not.
Touch.
My.
Fucking.
Stuff.
K?
K.

Party Foul.

Attack Attack!♥
Unce unce unce unce.
Anyway.
I'm thinking about dying my hair all like bright purple :}
Idk though.
xD
This was pointless.

Piercings♥

So far I have;:
[click the name of the piercing to see a piksha]

Angelbites.

2G gauges in one ear&&0G gauge in the other.

Three cartilage piercings in my right ear.

&&I want;:

Septum.

Top of my belly button.

Bottom of my belly button.

Hip piercings.

Madison.

Wrists.

Back dimples.

Nape.

Tragus.

Daith.

Conch.

Helix Orbital.

Vampire bites.

&&Then there are the ones I'm iffy on.

Venoms.

Corset.

Achilles. (both ankles)

Smiley.

Frowny.

Sooo yeah[:

I'd do tattoos too, but that would take me forever since I'm highly descriptive&&I want a ton.


With All The Stars In The Night Sky,
Lyndsey.