I am thirteen years old.
=D.
I don't feel any different, to be honest.
Same ol' Lyndsey.
Just ol'er. xD.
By the way, I want people to prank call me for my birthday. :].
Monday, December 28, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
I Cannot Finish Anything.
So I have a Quizilla account, and on Quizilla you can write stories.
I have only ever finished one series.
I can never finish anything.
I finished one Green Day fanfiction.
I started one about vampires, I started another about a troubled model.
And now I am about to make a new account.
I have no idea why I always do this.
Do I get bored or something?
Who knows.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I have only ever finished one series.
I can never finish anything.
I finished one Green Day fanfiction.
I started one about vampires, I started another about a troubled model.
And now I am about to make a new account.
I have no idea why I always do this.
Do I get bored or something?
Who knows.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
12/24/2009 <3
So today me and my ex-boyfriend Cody Micheal Lent got back together.
I am so fucking happy.
<33333.
I am so fucking happy.
<33333.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Fetishes.
Are interesting.
There's a lot of fetishes.
Like;
Foot fetishes, bondage fetishes, ethnic fetishes, obesity fetishes, Sadomasochistic fetishes, Drendophilia fetishes, Katoptronophilia fetishes, biting fetishes, and Emetophilia fetishes.
Let's start with foot fetishes.
Okay, some people get turned on by feet. Marilyn Manson has a foot fetish.
For a foot fetishist, a certain type of foot can insanely arouse them.
Foot fetishists can act sexually upon their fetish by messing around with another's foot. I really don't want to list how for personal reasons.
Bondage Fetishes;
Bondage refers to the use of restraints for the sexual pleasures of the parties involved. Some people like being tied up, handcuffed, etcetera.
Bondage has become a nich in sexual cultures of its own with pornography directors and actors specializing in it.
Ethnic Fetishes;
Some people have a thing for people of one race/ethnicity group. Asian, African-American, Caucasian, Hispanic, etc.
Obesity Fetishes;
The fetishization of fat people. The "chubby culture" is mainly made up of bisexual and gay men, a "chubby chaser" is an average/slim bisexual or gay male who likes fat guys.
Sadomasochistic Fetishes;
Sadism refers to sexual pleasure in inflicting sexual pain in others, but on the other hand a masochist derives being aroused from having sexual pain inflicted upon them.
Drendophilia Fetishes:
Being sexually aroused by trees.
I have no idea why.
Katoptronophilia Fetishes:
The fetish of having sex in front of mirrors.
That isn't too bad.
Biting Fetishes:
Self-explanitory. A lot of people have this, I mean, who doesn't think its kind of hot to have someone bite your neck?! >_>. DON'T JUDGE MEEEE.
Emetophilia Fetishes:
The fetish in which an individual is aroused by the act of vomiting. Ew.
I tell a lot of people I have a Snowsuit Fetish.
I don't.
I just think Snowsuits are amazing. <3.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
There's a lot of fetishes.
Like;
Foot fetishes, bondage fetishes, ethnic fetishes, obesity fetishes, Sadomasochistic fetishes, Drendophilia fetishes, Katoptronophilia fetishes, biting fetishes, and Emetophilia fetishes.
Let's start with foot fetishes.
Okay, some people get turned on by feet. Marilyn Manson has a foot fetish.
For a foot fetishist, a certain type of foot can insanely arouse them.
Foot fetishists can act sexually upon their fetish by messing around with another's foot. I really don't want to list how for personal reasons.
Bondage Fetishes;
Bondage refers to the use of restraints for the sexual pleasures of the parties involved. Some people like being tied up, handcuffed, etcetera.
Bondage has become a nich in sexual cultures of its own with pornography directors and actors specializing in it.
Ethnic Fetishes;
Some people have a thing for people of one race/ethnicity group. Asian, African-American, Caucasian, Hispanic, etc.
Obesity Fetishes;
The fetishization of fat people. The "chubby culture" is mainly made up of bisexual and gay men, a "chubby chaser" is an average/slim bisexual or gay male who likes fat guys.
Sadomasochistic Fetishes;
Sadism refers to sexual pleasure in inflicting sexual pain in others, but on the other hand a masochist derives being aroused from having sexual pain inflicted upon them.
Drendophilia Fetishes:
Being sexually aroused by trees.
I have no idea why.
Katoptronophilia Fetishes:
The fetish of having sex in front of mirrors.
That isn't too bad.
Biting Fetishes:
Self-explanitory. A lot of people have this, I mean, who doesn't think its kind of hot to have someone bite your neck?! >_>. DON'T JUDGE MEEEE.
Emetophilia Fetishes:
The fetish in which an individual is aroused by the act of vomiting. Ew.
I tell a lot of people I have a Snowsuit Fetish.
I don't.
I just think Snowsuits are amazing. <3.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I Need $$$
Okay, so, I need money.
I used to have a job but it was a seasonal job for Halloween as a Haunted House Scarer but obviously I can't get that job back.
So, I will do anything for money.
'Cept anything sexual because I don't roll like that.
So if anyone could get me a babysitting job or something it would be greatly appreciated.
I need money to buy hair dye and proper jewelry for piercings I am going to do myself.
I seriously need money.
So please please help me out here and find me a job.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I used to have a job but it was a seasonal job for Halloween as a Haunted House Scarer but obviously I can't get that job back.
So, I will do anything for money.
'Cept anything sexual because I don't roll like that.
So if anyone could get me a babysitting job or something it would be greatly appreciated.
I need money to buy hair dye and proper jewelry for piercings I am going to do myself.
I seriously need money.
So please please help me out here and find me a job.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
13 Going on 25.
Okay, so, my thirteenth birthday is in 10 days.
But, I act like I'm 25 half the time.
I always have.
When I was in fourth grade I went to the tanner with my mom and had bright blonde hair and wore make up and short skirts from Aeropostale.
I've always acted older.
I don't really know if its a good thing...or a bad thing.
I look older too >_>.
My friend said he thought I was a High-School Junior.
xD.
He didn't believe me when I said I was 12. Oh well, most people don't.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
But, I act like I'm 25 half the time.
I always have.
When I was in fourth grade I went to the tanner with my mom and had bright blonde hair and wore make up and short skirts from Aeropostale.
I've always acted older.
I don't really know if its a good thing...or a bad thing.
I look older too >_>.
My friend said he thought I was a High-School Junior.
xD.
He didn't believe me when I said I was 12. Oh well, most people don't.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Abortion.
I have changed my views on Abortion.
I used to believe that;
Abortion in any case was okay.
That is not what I currently believe.
I believe in Pro-Choice. But.
I do not believe in Abortion in this case;
Girl is a teenager, girl has sex with boyfriend, UH OH! SHES KNOCKED UP!
YOU made the choice to have sex, YOU let him put his penis in your vagina [Or her vagina on your penis. Whatever.]. It was in YOUR control.
I do not believe in Abortion being used as a birth control.
I think it is stupid to not take responsibility for your actions.
If MY daughter got pregnant because she had sex with her boyfriend no way in living HELL would I let her have an Abortion performed BECAUSE:
She made her own decision. It was not by force nor by fear of her boyfriend.
Now, I do believe in Abortion in the case of Rape or Incest.
Rape: Unlawful sexual activity commited forcibly or under threat of injury, murder, blackmail, etc. Usually act of sexual intercourse.
Incest: Sexual intercourse between persons closely related by blood.
Okay, so,
if you are RAPED and you do not want to carry your abuser's child I believe it is okay to Abort the pregnancy.
If you are a victim of INCEST, or if it was willingful, and the person did not want to have said child out of Incest because if the two parents have resembling DNA they will end up being metnally challenged or handicapped in some way I believe it is okay to Abort the pregnancy.
I believe it is a necsassity [or how ever you spell it] for the government to legalize Abortion or we will go back to the days when people were going in alleys and having people Abort them with coat hangers, which would create mayhem.
You have your views, I have mine.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I used to believe that;
Abortion in any case was okay.
That is not what I currently believe.
I believe in Pro-Choice. But.
I do not believe in Abortion in this case;
Girl is a teenager, girl has sex with boyfriend, UH OH! SHES KNOCKED UP!
YOU made the choice to have sex, YOU let him put his penis in your vagina [Or her vagina on your penis. Whatever.]. It was in YOUR control.
I do not believe in Abortion being used as a birth control.
I think it is stupid to not take responsibility for your actions.
If MY daughter got pregnant because she had sex with her boyfriend no way in living HELL would I let her have an Abortion performed BECAUSE:
She made her own decision. It was not by force nor by fear of her boyfriend.
Now, I do believe in Abortion in the case of Rape or Incest.
Rape: Unlawful sexual activity commited forcibly or under threat of injury, murder, blackmail, etc. Usually act of sexual intercourse.
Incest: Sexual intercourse between persons closely related by blood.
Okay, so,
if you are RAPED and you do not want to carry your abuser's child I believe it is okay to Abort the pregnancy.
If you are a victim of INCEST, or if it was willingful, and the person did not want to have said child out of Incest because if the two parents have resembling DNA they will end up being metnally challenged or handicapped in some way I believe it is okay to Abort the pregnancy.
I believe it is a necsassity [or how ever you spell it] for the government to legalize Abortion or we will go back to the days when people were going in alleys and having people Abort them with coat hangers, which would create mayhem.
You have your views, I have mine.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
...
So today is the nine-year anniversary of my dad's suicide.
I didn't go to school.
For the most part it was because I was tired as fuck and sick to my stomach. I really wanted to go to school today.
My mom went to work.
Which I think was a bad idea.
:/.
At least I get to go with my grandma shopping today...
So right now my life sucks and I am horribly depressed.
I just feel like shit.
1) My dad killed himself nine years ago today.
2) I have two different people who hate me at the moment.
3) I'm horribly guilty as always.
4) I have a headache.
I just wish my dad could have moved back to the UK instead of doing what he did.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I didn't go to school.
For the most part it was because I was tired as fuck and sick to my stomach. I really wanted to go to school today.
My mom went to work.
Which I think was a bad idea.
:/.
At least I get to go with my grandma shopping today...
So right now my life sucks and I am horribly depressed.
I just feel like shit.
1) My dad killed himself nine years ago today.
2) I have two different people who hate me at the moment.
3) I'm horribly guilty as always.
4) I have a headache.
I just wish my dad could have moved back to the UK instead of doing what he did.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
12/15/09
Before School - I woke up at five-thirty. I laid for like fifteen minutes...thinking...before getting my lazy ass out of bed and getting some clothes, straighten my hair, and put on make-up 'cause I be narsty lookin' without it. I got out to the bus and stood there for like three minutes with Ryann and Joey until the bus came. I got into the hallway and hung out with Audrey, Cassie, and Tim.
First Hour - Social Studies. Whoo. Mr. Zimmerman went on a rant about how he thinks pre-school/kindercare is stupid.
Second Hour - English. We got to watch the second part of "Brian's Song". I almost cried. D:.
Third Hour - Vagabonds. We basically rehearsed in the auditorium again. Lyssie wasn't there so I had like nobody to talk to.
Fourth Hour - Algebra A. Did my assignment. Whoo? Some girl's step-dad died. Yeah...right before the big 'ol nine year anniversary...whoo...
Lunch - Sat at usual table minus Alyssa. Cassie didn't have her lunch D:. I was all like "NOOOO." so yeah. Nachos are the sexxx.
Fifth Hour - Astronomy. Me and Clay made fun of Mr. Reed. Mr. Reed needs to stop trying to be funny. "I hate losing my marbles, it drives me crazy." [He was throwing marbles in a little coin thing to demonstrate something having to do with the moon?]
Sixth Hour - Science. Pizza party & awards ceremony. Avery kept feeling up on my thigh, I yelled at Micheal Baxter, and ranted about Icky-Mackenzie.
Bus Ride Home - Ian wasn't there. :/. I sat with this chick Micheala. Shes alright. I listened to Lady GaGa, Mindless Self Indulgence, and No Doubt. Mrs. Treevee [sp?] was yelling at kids over the speaker. I was annoyed.
After School - Took a shower and got on MSN/AIM/Myspace. Talked to Sam. Yeah. Kickass, right?
So my dad's nine year death anniversary is tomorrow. I hope I'll be okay.
First Hour - Social Studies. Whoo. Mr. Zimmerman went on a rant about how he thinks pre-school/kindercare is stupid.
Second Hour - English. We got to watch the second part of "Brian's Song". I almost cried. D:.
Third Hour - Vagabonds. We basically rehearsed in the auditorium again. Lyssie wasn't there so I had like nobody to talk to.
Fourth Hour - Algebra A. Did my assignment. Whoo? Some girl's step-dad died. Yeah...right before the big 'ol nine year anniversary...whoo...
Lunch - Sat at usual table minus Alyssa. Cassie didn't have her lunch D:. I was all like "NOOOO." so yeah. Nachos are the sexxx.
Fifth Hour - Astronomy. Me and Clay made fun of Mr. Reed. Mr. Reed needs to stop trying to be funny. "I hate losing my marbles, it drives me crazy." [He was throwing marbles in a little coin thing to demonstrate something having to do with the moon?]
Sixth Hour - Science. Pizza party & awards ceremony. Avery kept feeling up on my thigh, I yelled at Micheal Baxter, and ranted about Icky-Mackenzie.
Bus Ride Home - Ian wasn't there. :/. I sat with this chick Micheala. Shes alright. I listened to Lady GaGa, Mindless Self Indulgence, and No Doubt. Mrs. Treevee [sp?] was yelling at kids over the speaker. I was annoyed.
After School - Took a shower and got on MSN/AIM/Myspace. Talked to Sam. Yeah. Kickass, right?
So my dad's nine year death anniversary is tomorrow. I hope I'll be okay.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Most Epic Thing on Facebook. Ever.
Okay, so, on Facebook there is this little application called Social Interview, and it asks you questions and you answer them. One of them was "If you knew today was your last day on Earth, how would you spend it and why?" and I said "Hmmm >_______________>. Have hawt sex with a sexy person? ;D".
So, Cassie "liked" it and Sam commented it saying "Why hullo there." and an argument ensued. xD.
Sam: Why hullo there.
Cassie: Sam better back off. Lyndsey is mine. Kthnx baii.
Sam: Bitch, please >=
Cassie: You wanna fight Sam? Imma win this battle, and the war. So don't play.
Sam: I think someone is a little upset, that Lyndsey would pick me over them. :)
Me: This whole argument between you two is hilarious. xD.
Cassie: Uhm no. I am not 'upset' because I know fo sho Lyndsey would pick her bestestestestestestest friend over you Samuel. Deal wit it.
Sam: But you are like straight and such. That wouldn't work o_O
Me: I keep pressing the refresh button just to see this. xDDD.
Sam: >=
Cassie: Lyndsey: You is so silly. Sam: Lyndsey said you betta back off. Cause Imma win doe.
Me: ALL SAM CAN SAY IS THE ANGRY FACE. xDDDD.
Me: I want this argument to continue. xD.
Sam: Why would you want to win? You are straight, and all that stuff. I think =/
Cassie: So, what does being straight have to do with anything? Geez Sam, get all technical on everybody.
Sam: Because winning involved Hot sex with Lyndsey? Did you not even read the answer, Goddddd.
Cassie: I read the answer. That's why I said that Lyndsey was mine, and you cannot have her. (: I don't think you understood that part. She is married to me after all.
Sam: Fine! Take her, go have that Lesbian sex =/
Cassie: Yay. iWin. (You give up too easily. Lyndsey is worth the fight you know.)
CASSIE IS BEAST, THAT WAS EPIC, AND SAM PUSSIED OUT
xD
Cassie<333
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
So, Cassie "liked" it and Sam commented it saying "Why hullo there." and an argument ensued. xD.
Sam: Why hullo there.
Cassie: Sam better back off. Lyndsey is mine. Kthnx baii.
Sam: Bitch, please >=
Cassie: You wanna fight Sam? Imma win this battle, and the war. So don't play.
Sam: I think someone is a little upset, that Lyndsey would pick me over them. :)
Me: This whole argument between you two is hilarious. xD.
Cassie: Uhm no. I am not 'upset' because I know fo sho Lyndsey would pick her bestestestestestestest friend over you Samuel. Deal wit it.
Sam: But you are like straight and such. That wouldn't work o_O
Me: I keep pressing the refresh button just to see this. xDDD.
Sam: >=
Cassie: Lyndsey: You is so silly. Sam: Lyndsey said you betta back off. Cause Imma win doe.
Me: ALL SAM CAN SAY IS THE ANGRY FACE. xDDDD.
Me: I want this argument to continue. xD.
Sam: Why would you want to win? You are straight, and all that stuff. I think =/
Cassie: So, what does being straight have to do with anything? Geez Sam, get all technical on everybody.
Sam: Because winning involved Hot sex with Lyndsey? Did you not even read the answer, Goddddd.
Cassie: I read the answer. That's why I said that Lyndsey was mine, and you cannot have her. (: I don't think you understood that part. She is married to me after all.
Sam: Fine! Take her, go have that Lesbian sex =/
Cassie: Yay. iWin. (You give up too easily. Lyndsey is worth the fight you know.)
CASSIE IS BEAST, THAT WAS EPIC, AND SAM PUSSIED OUT
xD
Cassie<333
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Important Dates.
These are important dates to me, not you. Don't ask what they mean.
March 21, 2009.
September 23, 2009.
December 6, 2009.
February 14, 2009.
June 15, 2009.
March 18, 2009.
December 27, 2008.
June 11, 2009.
December 16, 2000.
February 17, 1972.
December 8, 1981.
September 6, 2009.
November 27, 2009.
June 7, 2007.
December 1, 2008.
July 8, 2009.
December 20, 2009.
I'll probably add more.
March 21, 2009.
September 23, 2009.
December 6, 2009.
February 14, 2009.
June 15, 2009.
March 18, 2009.
December 27, 2008.
June 11, 2009.
December 16, 2000.
February 17, 1972.
December 8, 1981.
September 6, 2009.
November 27, 2009.
June 7, 2007.
December 1, 2008.
July 8, 2009.
December 20, 2009.
I'll probably add more.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Trust.
Okay, if somebody tells you something out of pure trust they have with you, you don't go running your mouth about it.
Like, when somebody says "Promise not to tell anyone?" right before they tell you something, they obviously do not want you to tell anybody.
So don't go telling someone what they told you after you "promised" to not tell anyone.
Seriously.
Its wrong and its breaking someones trust with you.
Stop running your mouth.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Like, when somebody says "Promise not to tell anyone?" right before they tell you something, they obviously do not want you to tell anybody.
So don't go telling someone what they told you after you "promised" to not tell anyone.
Seriously.
Its wrong and its breaking someones trust with you.
Stop running your mouth.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Fuck You, Fuck You Very Much.
Fuck you Mom.
All you do is bitch about shit and you don't do a thing about it.
You sit on your ass all night watching Soap Opera re-runs from earlier in the day on SOAPNet.
Whenever I'm upset or cry you tell me to go upstairs, you never ask me whats wrong.
No, you change your Facebook status to "I can't take this drama anymore!!!".
You say you're leaving,
go do it, like everyone else.
You say you'll go kill yourself,
go do it, my dad sure didn't hesitate.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
All you do is bitch about shit and you don't do a thing about it.
You sit on your ass all night watching Soap Opera re-runs from earlier in the day on SOAPNet.
Whenever I'm upset or cry you tell me to go upstairs, you never ask me whats wrong.
No, you change your Facebook status to "I can't take this drama anymore!!!".
You say you're leaving,
go do it, like everyone else.
You say you'll go kill yourself,
go do it, my dad sure didn't hesitate.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Mr. Burnette <3.
So, I was in Vagabonds yesterday, and Mr. Burnette was acting pretty damn hilarious.
First of all, we were singing "Ring the Bells" and at one point everyone is supposed to go unison with the Soprano part, which is the part I sing throughout almost the entire song, and the Bass section forgot too and began singing their part, and Mr. Burnette asks us Sopranos, "What is the first word of your part?" and Keegan replied with "Ring." and Mr. Burnette goes "RING?! I HEARD DECK!" because the boy's part goes "Deck the halls....". xDD.
I don't know why but me and Alyssa found that hilarious.
And then he was talking about how to stand when in concert or festival and he started standing with his knees together and said "This looks like you have to go to the bathroom." and then stood like a boy in the choir and he said "This looks like you're gay.".
I knew it was mean, but I couldn't stop laughing.
Mr. Burnette can be cool. >_>.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
First of all, we were singing "Ring the Bells" and at one point everyone is supposed to go unison with the Soprano part, which is the part I sing throughout almost the entire song, and the Bass section forgot too and began singing their part, and Mr. Burnette asks us Sopranos, "What is the first word of your part?" and Keegan replied with "Ring." and Mr. Burnette goes "RING?! I HEARD DECK!" because the boy's part goes "Deck the halls....". xDD.
I don't know why but me and Alyssa found that hilarious.
And then he was talking about how to stand when in concert or festival and he started standing with his knees together and said "This looks like you have to go to the bathroom." and then stood like a boy in the choir and he said "This looks like you're gay.".
I knew it was mean, but I couldn't stop laughing.
Mr. Burnette can be cool. >_>.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Inside Jokes. <3.
These are just some inside jokes I have.
"TENTACLES!"
"Sex In Your Mouth Chips."
"Fuck me."
"An ancient proverb once said, I AM THE BESSTTTTT."
"I have a large car in my pants."
"...With syrup?"
"RING?! I HEARD DECK!"
"Dancing pig."
"BODY LOTION!"
"It squirts."
"Virgin In Your Mouth Chips."
"Wereturtles."
Just a few.
I will add more to this list. x].
"TENTACLES!"
"Sex In Your Mouth Chips."
"Fuck me."
"An ancient proverb once said, I AM THE BESSTTTTT."
"I have a large car in my pants."
"...With syrup?"
"RING?! I HEARD DECK!"
"Dancing pig."
"BODY LOTION!"
"It squirts."
"Virgin In Your Mouth Chips."
"Wereturtles."
Just a few.
I will add more to this list. x].
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Exposed.
I want to be exposed.
I want people to see the real me.
Something I don't do often.
I usually plant a 1000 watt smile on my face and pretend everything's okay and be hyper and crazy.
When really,
all I want to do is crawl back into my ditch I've dug for myself and cry.
I am sick of living a facade.
Sick of it.
I want people to see the real Lyndsey,
behind the eyeliner, and the smile, and the laugh.
I want people to see the real Lyndsey,
with blue eyes that have seen so much.
One of these days, if you go to school with me,
you'll see me in the hallway, curly haired, no eyeliner, with no smile on her face.
Like last year.
Its all going to happen again.
I can feel it in my veins.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I want people to see the real me.
Something I don't do often.
I usually plant a 1000 watt smile on my face and pretend everything's okay and be hyper and crazy.
When really,
all I want to do is crawl back into my ditch I've dug for myself and cry.
I am sick of living a facade.
Sick of it.
I want people to see the real Lyndsey,
behind the eyeliner, and the smile, and the laugh.
I want people to see the real Lyndsey,
with blue eyes that have seen so much.
One of these days, if you go to school with me,
you'll see me in the hallway, curly haired, no eyeliner, with no smile on her face.
Like last year.
Its all going to happen again.
I can feel it in my veins.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I Love ShilohBby and I's Weird Ass Convos.
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smu96 (11:42:21 PM): why am I a skank?
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Goals Before My Birthday.
Okay, seeing as my birthday is in about a month, I want to do some things while I'm this age before I get older.
For your information I am 12. Going to be 13. :].
Anyway.
Before I am 13 I Want To;
-Memorize "In My Own World" from Alice In Wonderland.
-Dye my hair black.
-Go to school wearing my "Kiss Me I'm Punk" Green Day shirt.
-Dye my hair red.
-Go back to that field behind the mall.
-Go to the mall with Alyssa again.
-Go to the mall with Cassie again.
-Go to the mall with Danielle again.
-Rebuild mine and Austin's friendship.
-Finish my My Chemical Romance mural thing.
-Wear my hair curly to school.
-Go streaking. Again. x].
-Get nose pierced.
-Actually go a week without drama.
-Be exposed.
Ta da. ;D.
From The Mind Of,
-Lyndsey.
For your information I am 12. Going to be 13. :].
Anyway.
Before I am 13 I Want To;
-Memorize "In My Own World" from Alice In Wonderland.
-Dye my hair black.
-Go to school wearing my "Kiss Me I'm Punk" Green Day shirt.
-Dye my hair red.
-Go back to that field behind the mall.
-Go to the mall with Alyssa again.
-Go to the mall with Cassie again.
-Go to the mall with Danielle again.
-Rebuild mine and Austin's friendship.
-Finish my My Chemical Romance mural thing.
-Wear my hair curly to school.
-Go streaking. Again. x].
-Get nose pierced.
-Actually go a week without drama.
-Be exposed.
Ta da. ;D.
From The Mind Of,
-Lyndsey.
Stop It.
Okay,
stop comparing me to someone else.
I fucking hate it.
Stop it!
I'm not her...I'm Lyndsey.
Do I need a "Hello, My Name Is" sticker everytime I see you so you know not to call me by her name?
If you ever do.
I'll be angry.
Just stop it.
It makes me so mad.
I. Am. Not. Her.
I. Am. Lyndsey.
Get it?
Got it?
Good.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
stop comparing me to someone else.
I fucking hate it.
Stop it!
I'm not her...I'm Lyndsey.
Do I need a "Hello, My Name Is" sticker everytime I see you so you know not to call me by her name?
If you ever do.
I'll be angry.
Just stop it.
It makes me so mad.
I. Am. Not. Her.
I. Am. Lyndsey.
Get it?
Got it?
Good.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Sex.
Yes. Sex.
Quite an interesting subject.
Its like a drug, its something you can become addicted to.
Most kids my age talk about it a lot.
Like discussing how a zucchini looks like a penis with tan-lines, ANYWAYYYY.
Sex.
Yeah.
Its fun.
Not that I would know >_>.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Quite an interesting subject.
Its like a drug, its something you can become addicted to.
Most kids my age talk about it a lot.
Like discussing how a zucchini looks like a penis with tan-lines, ANYWAYYYY.
Sex.
Yeah.
Its fun.
Not that I would know >_>.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Monday, November 23, 2009
A Letter.
Dear You,
Thank you. For making everyday special, for giving me someone to look forward to spending time with, for being someone who can actually understand me.
Thank you. For not yelling at me all of the times I knew you wanted to, for saving me, for just being there.
Thank you for being my last life line.
Thank you...for loving me.
But most of all,
thank you,
for being you.
-Lyndsey
Thank you. For making everyday special, for giving me someone to look forward to spending time with, for being someone who can actually understand me.
Thank you. For not yelling at me all of the times I knew you wanted to, for saving me, for just being there.
Thank you for being my last life line.
Thank you...for loving me.
But most of all,
thank you,
for being you.
-Lyndsey
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I Want to Lose 15 Pounds in 2 Weeks.
Yeah. Thats my goal.
My mother told me I was fat today and she wasn't kidding.
I'm already Vegetarian, which cut a lot out of my diet,
and I've been drinking Soy Milk lately.
But I did Cheerleading & Gymnastics for years but I quit Gymnastics in the spring because I was going through a rough time in my life and I recently quit Cheerleading.
So I have a plan.
For two weeks I will eat nothing but one salad a day for dinner and drink nothing but water & soy milk. And sleep a lot.
Last winter I was really sick and lost thirty pounds in like three weeks and put it back on...so I was a 00 for a month and weighed 82 pounds.
Anyway.
Hopefully this will work and I'll be skinny again.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
My mother told me I was fat today and she wasn't kidding.
I'm already Vegetarian, which cut a lot out of my diet,
and I've been drinking Soy Milk lately.
But I did Cheerleading & Gymnastics for years but I quit Gymnastics in the spring because I was going through a rough time in my life and I recently quit Cheerleading.
So I have a plan.
For two weeks I will eat nothing but one salad a day for dinner and drink nothing but water & soy milk. And sleep a lot.
Last winter I was really sick and lost thirty pounds in like three weeks and put it back on...so I was a 00 for a month and weighed 82 pounds.
Anyway.
Hopefully this will work and I'll be skinny again.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
I'm Terrified. [National Suicide Survivor's Day]
Today, November 21st, is National Suicide Survivor's Day.
Something I can celebrate.
I attempted suicide myself, and I honestly don't know why I would do that over such a stupid reason.
I was going through a time when I didn't know who I was anymore because someone I truly loved had left me.
I'm going through that time again, and to be honest, it scares me.
I'm scared to death I'm going to start being that reckless Lyndsey I once was.
Eating Advil, drinking my mom's Keystone Light, not caring about anyone or anything, especially myself.
Well, thats not true. I cared about everyone. Too much.
I still do.
But it terrifies me that I might be like that again...
Most of the close, close, friends I have now have never seen me like that...
And I'm scared they'll abandon me.
Like my other friends did...
I'm so scared.
I don't know what to do.
Its like I'm falling.
Back into the past...filled with fishnets, alcohol, pills, and punk rock.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Something I can celebrate.
I attempted suicide myself, and I honestly don't know why I would do that over such a stupid reason.
I was going through a time when I didn't know who I was anymore because someone I truly loved had left me.
I'm going through that time again, and to be honest, it scares me.
I'm scared to death I'm going to start being that reckless Lyndsey I once was.
Eating Advil, drinking my mom's Keystone Light, not caring about anyone or anything, especially myself.
Well, thats not true. I cared about everyone. Too much.
I still do.
But it terrifies me that I might be like that again...
Most of the close, close, friends I have now have never seen me like that...
And I'm scared they'll abandon me.
Like my other friends did...
I'm so scared.
I don't know what to do.
Its like I'm falling.
Back into the past...filled with fishnets, alcohol, pills, and punk rock.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I FINALLY DISCOVERED A BAND.
http://www.myspace.com/heyhihello
HeyHiHello is fucking orgasmic.
I DISCOVERED THEM. :].
My favorite song by them is "Goodnight, Moon.".
They sound like Owl City.
ilovethemtilltheworldends :].
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
HeyHiHello is fucking orgasmic.
I DISCOVERED THEM. :].
My favorite song by them is "Goodnight, Moon.".
They sound like Owl City.
ilovethemtilltheworldends :].
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
"You're a Freak."
I had a conversation with a girl named Raquel and this is how it went [what she said is in bold];
i take it u dont like me huh
No. Not after you kept screaming at me on the bus.
i was jk but u took it all serious and it was my cuzzin too
but who cares who needs u anywasy
Alright then. I was in a bad mood all day today, just saying. And two people screaming at me from all the way in the back of the bus isn't very pleasant.
oh ok excuses huh
I really don't care what you think of me.
I don't care if you stop talking to me.
and y were u bring a lea and licking lyndsey and STOKING raylenes arm
being a lez*
I stroke everyone. I do that to everyone.
I go up to people and ask if I can stroke them.
Lindsay has been one of my best friends since fourth grade.
Its an inside joke.
thats weird
Yeah I know I'm weird.
Its fun.
okay?? istill think its not normal though just saying
I'm not normal.
I never have been.
I'm half lesbian.
oh thats not something u should admitt
Being Bisexual?
I don't see a thing wrong with it.
well i do its justr not normal okay
Okay then. You're homophobic.
You offend me.
idc im not scared of homos i dislike them so there u have ur ways and i have mine Then there you are. You dislike gays, lesbians, bisexuals, trisexuals, and transvestites.
Which offends me.
they r all freaks and i dont care that it affends u so i guess ur a freak
Yes. I am.
I love being a "freak".
well have to go weirdo
Okay then.
ok that ockward
*awkward
Learn how to spell.
Okay, if you're going to call me a freak because of my Sexuality don't speak to me ever again. It disgusts me in everyway.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
i take it u dont like me huh
No. Not after you kept screaming at me on the bus.
i was jk but u took it all serious and it was my cuzzin too
but who cares who needs u anywasy
Alright then. I was in a bad mood all day today, just saying. And two people screaming at me from all the way in the back of the bus isn't very pleasant.
oh ok excuses huh
I really don't care what you think of me.
I don't care if you stop talking to me.
and y were u bring a lea and licking lyndsey and STOKING raylenes arm
being a lez*
I stroke everyone. I do that to everyone.
I go up to people and ask if I can stroke them.
Lindsay has been one of my best friends since fourth grade.
Its an inside joke.
thats weird
Yeah I know I'm weird.
Its fun.
okay?? istill think its not normal though just saying
I'm not normal.
I never have been.
I'm half lesbian.
oh thats not something u should admitt
Being Bisexual?
I don't see a thing wrong with it.
well i do its justr not normal okay
Okay then. You're homophobic.
You offend me.
idc im not scared of homos i dislike them so there u have ur ways and i have mine Then there you are. You dislike gays, lesbians, bisexuals, trisexuals, and transvestites.
Which offends me.
they r all freaks and i dont care that it affends u so i guess ur a freak
Yes. I am.
I love being a "freak".
well have to go weirdo
Okay then.
ok that ockward
*awkward
Learn how to spell.
Okay, if you're going to call me a freak because of my Sexuality don't speak to me ever again. It disgusts me in everyway.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Insane Clown Posse.
I like ICP.
Big fuckin' deal.
It rubbed off on me during the summer.
No I am not doing this to impress this one kid, I'm over him. Hes my friend and thats it.
No I am not a fucking Juggalette.
I'll never call myself one.
I like some ICP, and I love Boondox.
Big deal.
:].
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Big fuckin' deal.
It rubbed off on me during the summer.
No I am not doing this to impress this one kid, I'm over him. Hes my friend and thats it.
No I am not a fucking Juggalette.
I'll never call myself one.
I like some ICP, and I love Boondox.
Big deal.
:].
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
"I care about you more than anyone else in the world."
I feel like my life is spinning out of control, so slowly.
That everything I ever gripped onto is slipping away, and that I'm losing all control of my own mind, my mind wanders to disturbing thoughts and I feel like I'm falling, and falling, and falling, as if I fell into the rabbit hole and nobody is there to stop me.
That everything I ever gripped onto is slipping away, and that I'm losing all control of my own mind, my mind wanders to disturbing thoughts and I feel like I'm falling, and falling, and falling, as if I fell into the rabbit hole and nobody is there to stop me.
"Tossed Away"
Her cries echo through shadowy halls,
black mascara dripping down her porcelain skin
she is fed mixtures of self-loathing and neglect
swaddled in her mother's ignorance and sin.
Forced to exist with blinking shallow eyes
her shell of a body hollow of all respect,
as birth drained all hope that laid within
she was tossed away like a useless object.
This is a poem I read on allpoetry.com by the user annother.
black mascara dripping down her porcelain skin
she is fed mixtures of self-loathing and neglect
swaddled in her mother's ignorance and sin.
Forced to exist with blinking shallow eyes
her shell of a body hollow of all respect,
as birth drained all hope that laid within
she was tossed away like a useless object.
This is a poem I read on allpoetry.com by the user annother.
"YOU'RE A BUM!"
That does not insult me.
Theres this kid at my school in my grade whom I used to be friends with and me and one of my best friends, Alyssa, were telling our friend Danielle about something the kid did at the dance [A girl he was dancing with went down...AND HE WENT DOWN WITH HER.], and we thought it was funny, we didn't do it to be mean, and now hes calling me a "bum" and Alyssa a "rat."
The term bum does not insult me.
I have a very pretty pink box.
And Alyssa's has indoor electricity and plumbing and heating.
I don't get how thats supposed to insult me.
I really don't.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Theres this kid at my school in my grade whom I used to be friends with and me and one of my best friends, Alyssa, were telling our friend Danielle about something the kid did at the dance [A girl he was dancing with went down...AND HE WENT DOWN WITH HER.], and we thought it was funny, we didn't do it to be mean, and now hes calling me a "bum" and Alyssa a "rat."
The term bum does not insult me.
I have a very pretty pink box.
And Alyssa's has indoor electricity and plumbing and heating.
I don't get how thats supposed to insult me.
I really don't.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
My Family. x].
People sometimes, erg, usually, believe I hate my family. I can make it seem like it, but they mean a lot to me.
Jennie Kate McNitt - My mother. I've said I hate her before. I honestly don't. I love my mom more than anything and shes an inspiration to me. I could never live without her. Putting up with her is quite difficult sometimes, but, I've learned to live with it. Shes such a strong woman and has been through so much and I know that after our fights I'll sit in my room crying and screaming about how much I hate her, but none of thats true. I love my mother more than anything or anyone.
Eric James Anderson - My father. This is going to be the first and last time I EVER blog about what I think of my father. I hate him. I hate him for what he did. I hate him for the person he was, but I realize he lived with a very difficult mental disease called Schizophrenia and simply couldn't handle anything. In a few short five years he had moved to another country [USA. He was from the United Kingdom], met a girl, got her pregnant when they didn't even have a relationship, and had a difficult thing to live with and then had a young daughter he had to take care of on the weekends in a small studio apartment. He committed suicide. Not to get into the gory details, but I was there, and all I remember is the gunshot and the blood splattering the windows. Please don't ever ask me to tell you the full story. I do thank him for one thing, my creative ability. My father was an artist, writer, and musician. Thats the only thing I will and could ever thank him for.
Jason Matthew Metcalf - My step-dad. Well, not literally my step-dad, hes been my mother's boyfriend for five years. Anyway, me and him usually don't get along. Well, we never get along. Ever. But I thank him for buying me things and being there for me.
Darlene Elizabeth McNitt - My grandmother. I love this woman more than anything. More than my mother. I am closer to her than anyone. She means so much to me and I don't think I could go on without her, but I know at some time I'll have to. She is the only one in my family who has never doubted me and she knows I will grow up and not fuck up my life. I love you Nanny.
Robert Lewis McNitt - My grandfather. This man. Well, hes done so many things that I can never imagine doing. He was in the Navy, he is a retired succesful politician, and a retired Floor Manager for TRW [An automotive company that used to be stationed in the town I live in but moved to Mexico.] and raised two children, one that wasn't even his own. I made one promise to this man I will always keep, to grow up, and attend University of Michigan and graduate. With honours. And be a succesful young woman.
Blair James Carlton McNitt - My cousin. BJ is one of the people in my family I doubt sometimes, but hes been through so much. He has one daughter he doesn't really get to see but her loves her more than anything and I wish him and his long-term girlfriend the best in Louisianna.
Alberta Elizabeth Dresser - My great-grandmother. This woman...is...difficult. But I love her. Sure, me and my grandpa make fun of her strange ways at times, but I have to learn that she was born many many many years before me and that I have to let her think that milk still costs $0.25 and that a pack of gum was a nickel. Sure, shes asked me if I'm a Satanist before, but I love her.
Thats my family. I hope you accept them. I have a very large family but those are the people I decided to write about.
Jennie Kate McNitt - My mother. I've said I hate her before. I honestly don't. I love my mom more than anything and shes an inspiration to me. I could never live without her. Putting up with her is quite difficult sometimes, but, I've learned to live with it. Shes such a strong woman and has been through so much and I know that after our fights I'll sit in my room crying and screaming about how much I hate her, but none of thats true. I love my mother more than anything or anyone.
Eric James Anderson - My father. This is going to be the first and last time I EVER blog about what I think of my father. I hate him. I hate him for what he did. I hate him for the person he was, but I realize he lived with a very difficult mental disease called Schizophrenia and simply couldn't handle anything. In a few short five years he had moved to another country [USA. He was from the United Kingdom], met a girl, got her pregnant when they didn't even have a relationship, and had a difficult thing to live with and then had a young daughter he had to take care of on the weekends in a small studio apartment. He committed suicide. Not to get into the gory details, but I was there, and all I remember is the gunshot and the blood splattering the windows. Please don't ever ask me to tell you the full story. I do thank him for one thing, my creative ability. My father was an artist, writer, and musician. Thats the only thing I will and could ever thank him for.
Jason Matthew Metcalf - My step-dad. Well, not literally my step-dad, hes been my mother's boyfriend for five years. Anyway, me and him usually don't get along. Well, we never get along. Ever. But I thank him for buying me things and being there for me.
Darlene Elizabeth McNitt - My grandmother. I love this woman more than anything. More than my mother. I am closer to her than anyone. She means so much to me and I don't think I could go on without her, but I know at some time I'll have to. She is the only one in my family who has never doubted me and she knows I will grow up and not fuck up my life. I love you Nanny.
Robert Lewis McNitt - My grandfather. This man. Well, hes done so many things that I can never imagine doing. He was in the Navy, he is a retired succesful politician, and a retired Floor Manager for TRW [An automotive company that used to be stationed in the town I live in but moved to Mexico.] and raised two children, one that wasn't even his own. I made one promise to this man I will always keep, to grow up, and attend University of Michigan and graduate. With honours. And be a succesful young woman.
Blair James Carlton McNitt - My cousin. BJ is one of the people in my family I doubt sometimes, but hes been through so much. He has one daughter he doesn't really get to see but her loves her more than anything and I wish him and his long-term girlfriend the best in Louisianna.
Alberta Elizabeth Dresser - My great-grandmother. This woman...is...difficult. But I love her. Sure, me and my grandpa make fun of her strange ways at times, but I have to learn that she was born many many many years before me and that I have to let her think that milk still costs $0.25 and that a pack of gum was a nickel. Sure, shes asked me if I'm a Satanist before, but I love her.
Thats my family. I hope you accept them. I have a very large family but those are the people I decided to write about.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
:/
Me and Justen broke up.
Yeah....
So anyway.
I'm Bi, right?
And I REALLY want to date a chick,
but there aren't any girls I like at the moment. >.<
And then I miss one of my ex-boyfriends.
And really really really like this guy and have since April,
and I'm thinking about asking this one kid out.
But I don't know.
But I REALLY want to date a chick.
I had a thing with this one girl,
but I don't really talk to her anymore.
>.<.
Life is confusing sometimes, isn't it?
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Yeah....
So anyway.
I'm Bi, right?
And I REALLY want to date a chick,
but there aren't any girls I like at the moment. >.<
And then I miss one of my ex-boyfriends.
And really really really like this guy and have since April,
and I'm thinking about asking this one kid out.
But I don't know.
But I REALLY want to date a chick.
I had a thing with this one girl,
but I don't really talk to her anymore.
>.<.
Life is confusing sometimes, isn't it?
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Monday, November 9, 2009
to my dearest lyndsey, love shiloh.
dearest lyndsey,
i love you lyndsey, your my absolute best friend. i adore your sexy guts :] haha. youve gone through alot and i understand that and although we get pissed at each other its ok cause i love you.
alrightee i love you,
shiloh
i love you lyndsey, your my absolute best friend. i adore your sexy guts :] haha. youve gone through alot and i understand that and although we get pissed at each other its ok cause i love you.
alrightee i love you,
shiloh
Saturday, November 7, 2009
"You're like the coolest fucking chick ever, lets leave it at that."
Thats what one of my ex-boyfriends said to me tonight. [see title of this entry.]
I feel so fucking amazing.
I hope he wasn't lying to me.
Because that made me feel really fucking special.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I feel so fucking amazing.
I hope he wasn't lying to me.
Because that made me feel really fucking special.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Person A Loves Person B But Person B Loves Person C and Person C Doesn't Love Person B So Person B Cries on Person A's Shoulder.
My situation in life sucks right now.
I've been in love with this person for about 7 months now, and they used to be in love with me in the first 3 months but then I asked him if he loved me anymore and he said "Sorry but no." and then he told me I was his "little sister". -____-.
Anyway, hes been in this on and off relationship with this chick and she keeps breaking up with him and it hurts him so much and I always end up being the shoulder he cries on.
It pisses me off.
Not the fact that I'm the shoulder he cries on.
The fact she continuously hurts him. I hate seeing him hurt.
They're probably going to break up (again >.<) soon.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I've been in love with this person for about 7 months now, and they used to be in love with me in the first 3 months but then I asked him if he loved me anymore and he said "Sorry but no." and then he told me I was his "little sister". -____-.
Anyway, hes been in this on and off relationship with this chick and she keeps breaking up with him and it hurts him so much and I always end up being the shoulder he cries on.
It pisses me off.
Not the fact that I'm the shoulder he cries on.
The fact she continuously hurts him. I hate seeing him hurt.
They're probably going to break up (again >.<) soon.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Gah.
One of my best friends, who I previously thought didn't like me at all anymore [see previous blogs.] just told me I'm over analystic.
I am!
I analyze everything. The way people act, the way they look at me, if someone looks at me funky or doesn't say what they used to I flip out. I think its either because;
A) I've had a lot of people just abandon me and I'm scared of it.
B) I have schizophrenia and I think the world is against me, which is one of the symptoms.
C) I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder on how people act.
Hmm. A therapist I had at one time suggested I might have schizophrenia. And my dad had it. So...hmm. And in the summer when I started making new friends I was terrified that none of them really liked me and as soon as school started they would all turn against me.
I scare myself, too.
I was tested for Cystic Fybrosis [sp?] and I read things about it on Wikipedia and I scared myself to death. Of course, I don't have it.
Gah.
I think I'm just overly pessimistic.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I am!
I analyze everything. The way people act, the way they look at me, if someone looks at me funky or doesn't say what they used to I flip out. I think its either because;
A) I've had a lot of people just abandon me and I'm scared of it.
B) I have schizophrenia and I think the world is against me, which is one of the symptoms.
C) I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder on how people act.
Hmm. A therapist I had at one time suggested I might have schizophrenia. And my dad had it. So...hmm. And in the summer when I started making new friends I was terrified that none of them really liked me and as soon as school started they would all turn against me.
I scare myself, too.
I was tested for Cystic Fybrosis [sp?] and I read things about it on Wikipedia and I scared myself to death. Of course, I don't have it.
Gah.
I think I'm just overly pessimistic.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Okay...
I'm fully aware that one of my best friends doesn't like me as much as they used to.
I said hi to them today on IM,
and they said "what?".
Like I was bothering them.
It almost made me cry.
I miss the old him...
I miss it when his eyes looked so happy.
Now it hurts to look him in the eye because he looks so hurt.
*sigh*.
He just said he isn't mad at me.
I just wish we were as close as we were. I hate losing friends. I've lost a lot, and I don't want to lose him. Hes like my brother and he means a lot to me...
I wish he read my Blogspot. >.<.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I said hi to them today on IM,
and they said "what?".
Like I was bothering them.
It almost made me cry.
I miss the old him...
I miss it when his eyes looked so happy.
Now it hurts to look him in the eye because he looks so hurt.
*sigh*.
He just said he isn't mad at me.
I just wish we were as close as we were. I hate losing friends. I've lost a lot, and I don't want to lose him. Hes like my brother and he means a lot to me...
I wish he read my Blogspot. >.<.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Losing them?
I believe I am losing one of my best friends.
I've been friends with him since April...and now all of a sudden it seems like he doesn't care about me anymore.
I used to be I guess high in his Myspace Tops but now I'm not even in them...
It hurts a lot because today I said hi to him on IM and all he said was "byez" and got off.
I'll see him tomorrow before 2nd hour and I'll just say "Are you mad at me?" or something like that.
I hope we don't drift apart.
He means so much to me.
And some people think I'm "obsessed" with him. I'm not.
Even one of my best friends thinks I'm "obsessed" with him.
I miss the old him.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I've been friends with him since April...and now all of a sudden it seems like he doesn't care about me anymore.
I used to be I guess high in his Myspace Tops but now I'm not even in them...
It hurts a lot because today I said hi to him on IM and all he said was "byez" and got off.
I'll see him tomorrow before 2nd hour and I'll just say "Are you mad at me?" or something like that.
I hope we don't drift apart.
He means so much to me.
And some people think I'm "obsessed" with him. I'm not.
Even one of my best friends thinks I'm "obsessed" with him.
I miss the old him.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Halloween.
October 31st.
Yes, today is Halloween.
Halloween's origin has its roots in the Roman feast of Pomona, the goddess of fruits and seeds and harvesting, the festival of the dead Parentalia, but is more linked to Samhain, a Celtic festival.
The ancient Celts believed the border between this world and the Underworld or Otherworld became thin on Samhain, allowing all kinds of spirits to pass through.
Halloween is my favourite holiday.
I've loved it since I was little.
I usually like things on the darker or strange side. You know, horror films and such.
I hate some of the things that time has done to it.
Don't get me wrong, I love the majority of it. But some small things I don't.
The "sexy" costumes the most though. Gah! I hate them.
A year ago my opinion would have been VERY different, but seeing as I've kind of broadened my horizons past the E! Network and Paris Hilton and Lindsay Lohan and Britney Spears.
Anyway.
I'm going to be a Punk Rock Zombie ;D.
Happy Halloween.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Yes, today is Halloween.
Halloween's origin has its roots in the Roman feast of Pomona, the goddess of fruits and seeds and harvesting, the festival of the dead Parentalia, but is more linked to Samhain, a Celtic festival.
The ancient Celts believed the border between this world and the Underworld or Otherworld became thin on Samhain, allowing all kinds of spirits to pass through.
Halloween is my favourite holiday.
I've loved it since I was little.
I usually like things on the darker or strange side. You know, horror films and such.
I hate some of the things that time has done to it.
Don't get me wrong, I love the majority of it. But some small things I don't.
The "sexy" costumes the most though. Gah! I hate them.
A year ago my opinion would have been VERY different, but seeing as I've kind of broadened my horizons past the E! Network and Paris Hilton and Lindsay Lohan and Britney Spears.
Anyway.
I'm going to be a Punk Rock Zombie ;D.
Happy Halloween.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Hello :]
FIRST OF ALL; MY BIRTHDAY IS IN EXACTLY TWO MONTHS! :]]
Just sayin'. :]
Anyway, today was alright. Cassie wasn't there today. D:. I was sad. Mackenzie & Lindsay's drama annoyed me today. >.<. I regret telling myself last night I miss drama. Well, I don't miss being involved, I miss watching it. Its interesting.
Anyway. Halloween is Saturdayyy. :].
I'm going to be a punk rock zombie >_>.
Woah.
I just realized something.
I talk to one of my ex-boyfriends. A lot.
xDDD.
Like, everyday on AIM.
Odd...
Hmm...
I want the new AFI album so fucking bad.
Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut and some new clothes so MAYBE I could convince my mom to buy me "Crash Love". I love love love the new single "Medicate" from AFI.
WHAT THE HELL DID DAVEY DO TO HIS HAIR?!
Okay, if you watch the "Love Like Winter" music video from their album "Decemberunderground" which I believe was the one before "Crash Love" and Davey's hair looked amazing. But now he looks like Elvis with blonde highlights. xD.
I'm listening to A Perfect Circle.
Shes turning me blue, such a lovely color for youuuu.
<3.
Marissa had me listen to it.
Well....
Yeah.
Just another ramble blog.
Kbaii.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Just sayin'. :]
Anyway, today was alright. Cassie wasn't there today. D:. I was sad. Mackenzie & Lindsay's drama annoyed me today. >.<. I regret telling myself last night I miss drama. Well, I don't miss being involved, I miss watching it. Its interesting.
Anyway. Halloween is Saturdayyy. :].
I'm going to be a punk rock zombie >_>.
Woah.
I just realized something.
I talk to one of my ex-boyfriends. A lot.
xDDD.
Like, everyday on AIM.
Odd...
Hmm...
I want the new AFI album so fucking bad.
Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut and some new clothes so MAYBE I could convince my mom to buy me "Crash Love". I love love love the new single "Medicate" from AFI.
WHAT THE HELL DID DAVEY DO TO HIS HAIR?!
Okay, if you watch the "Love Like Winter" music video from their album "Decemberunderground" which I believe was the one before "Crash Love" and Davey's hair looked amazing. But now he looks like Elvis with blonde highlights. xD.
I'm listening to A Perfect Circle.
Shes turning me blue, such a lovely color for youuuu.
<3.
Marissa had me listen to it.
Well....
Yeah.
Just another ramble blog.
Kbaii.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
NEW BLOG ;D
Okay, well, I write a lot of poetry and songs and short stories and such, so, I decided to make another blog on this username [LyndseyScaresWorld] dedicated to my creations.
It will be called "De L'esprit Belle" which in French means "From The Beautiful Mind".
I'll post poetry, songs, short stories, and maybe a series. I don't know.
As soon as I get a digital camera I'll take pictures of the Anime and Manga I draw.
[I use my friend's cameras for my current pictures. xD]
Kbaii.
http://fromthebeautifulmind.blogspot.com/
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
It will be called "De L'esprit Belle" which in French means "From The Beautiful Mind".
I'll post poetry, songs, short stories, and maybe a series. I don't know.
As soon as I get a digital camera I'll take pictures of the Anime and Manga I draw.
[I use my friend's cameras for my current pictures. xD]
Kbaii.
http://fromthebeautifulmind.blogspot.com/
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
>.<
So, theres this kid I've been in love with for about 7 months now.
And he used to be in love with me, for three months he was actually.
But then he told me he didn't love me anymore.
I cannot get over him.
Its crazy.
Hes in love with this other girl...
And he told me I was his "little sister"...
But today he took me out of his tops.
So I'm sad now....
I was fourth.
But now it goes;
His girlfriend, ICP, his friend, and his other friend. [He has a Top 4]
I really care about him...
And hes changed a lot since I first started talking to him...
I miss the old him.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
And he used to be in love with me, for three months he was actually.
But then he told me he didn't love me anymore.
I cannot get over him.
Its crazy.
Hes in love with this other girl...
And he told me I was his "little sister"...
But today he took me out of his tops.
So I'm sad now....
I was fourth.
But now it goes;
His girlfriend, ICP, his friend, and his other friend. [He has a Top 4]
I really care about him...
And hes changed a lot since I first started talking to him...
I miss the old him.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Heroes?
As you all should know, I have a few close friends. They mean the world to me and I would like to tell you about them.
Shiloh Madison - I love this girl more than words can compare. She used to hate me with a passion but she added me on Myspace and we got to talking and became friends. I first started hanging out with her back in June of 2009 and she became the safety pin to my plaid fabric. I respect her more than anything because through out what people say about her she holds her head high and tries her hardest to be there for everyone. I will never forget the crazy and hilarious times I have had with my ShilohBby. TENTACLES! <3
Cassaundra Marie - This girl is so special. I've only known her since the beginning of Summer '09 but quite honestly shes one of the few of my friends who has never previously hated me. And I love her for that. She is such a strong girl and it breaks my heart to know that she has been hurt by people. She has shown me what a truly strong and empowered person is and I will treasure the memories I made with her. <3
Alyssa Maureen - Alyssa, Alyssa. Well, didn't I used to hate her? Yeah. And didn't she used to hate me? Yeah! How strange! xDD. Well, she is such an interesting person. She does have quite the sharp and switchblade personality and sometimes spontaeneous but I feel like the past I had with her doesn't matter and all that matters is the friendship we have now and I absolutely love her to death. Oh, one last thing...BABY CARROT! <3
Jemia Netasha - Jemia is so amazing. She has been my "sista" since 6th grade. I have known her since 3rd but in 6th we got so amazingly close. This girl means the world to me and I do not think I could ever compare to her. She puts the brightest smile on my face and she will do the goofiest things with me, such as write our rendition of Britney Spears' "If You Seek Amy" to "If You Seek Austin" in Math Class when we're supposed to be multiplying fractions with uncommon denominators in 6th grade. xD. <3
Austin William - I love this kid. I've known him since April of 2009 and he's put me through some hardships and worries me sometimes, but I thank him for the most amazing memories he's given me and the insight I now have. He is definetely a strange and interesting child but I am so happy he's given me the exciting life I now have. Hes my brother, hes my AustinCat...and no one else's. <3
Lindsay Alissa - Sometimes when we argue we seem like two bickering sisters, but thats how we've always been. You're my Twinneh and you have shown me so much in this world. I will admit, sometimes youpiss me off anger me but I have to learn to accept that we ARE different in many ways. <3
Samuel Thomas - I've only known you since September of 2009 but you have interested me since. You're a very...peculiar person who can sometimes be hilariously cocky. Like that ime in Wendys and the firetruck drove by...Oh God. xD. <3
Shannon - Okay, big deal, I forgot your middle name. xD. You're so sweet and so intelligent and caring but sometimes your decisions terrify me. I really hope you find yourself in this big ocean of lies. <3
Justen Matthew - No I did not put my boyfriend first. I'm sorry but...I don't put my boyfriends before my friends. Anyway, on with Justen, you're amazing. You make me smile, you make me feel like I'm actually worth something, and as thought all of these scars and nightmares melted away. <333
Nicole Leann - Okay, so you're one of my closest friends, but yet I have never met you. xD. You live in Ohio, and I met you through Lindsay. But you are so hilarious sometimes. I cherish the conversations we have on MSN and I will always be there to be your "relationship person". xD. <3
Meghan - At the moment I do not know your middle name. xD. But I met you through Shiloh this summer and at first I thought you didn't like me but now I know you do. xD. You're such a cool person I am very happy I met you and you're so intelligent and wise...sometimes it scares me. <3
Danielle - Don't know your middle name either. xD. But this year I met you in Choir and you added me and I realized what a cool person you are. You're uber fun to chill with and you're extremely helpful when I need help with the i-Macs in Choir. xD. <3
Carolyn Elizabeth - I don't care if I haven't met you in person, you are so amazing. I met you on Quizilla when you read my "Broken Billie Joe" Green Day fanfiction series and then you added me and I thought you were really cool. Especially since during our first conversation I was eating that orgasmic French Toast. xD. <3
Emily Marie Antoinette - Emily! Okay, well, I met you on Myspace too! :]. I forget why you added me. *racks brain* OH! Because I was dating Cody. Yes...I believe so. Anyway, you're so odd sometimes but ai luhh youh. You brighten up my day with your dancing pig, which I look forward to. <3
Audrey - NO I DON'T KNOW YOUR MIDDLE NAME EITHER. xD. Okay, well, I just met you this year, correct? But you are one of the coolest people I know. Especially in Wendys when you're laughing at me when I have ketchup on my elbow. >_>. xD. <3
Krystal - I met you this summer in the middle of the mall when your aunt or best friend's mom or whatever came in and took you and said she was gonna arrest Michelle. xD. You and me have talked 9874972987th times on IM and you are so amazing. <3
Just a little insight into my crazy friends.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Shiloh Madison - I love this girl more than words can compare. She used to hate me with a passion but she added me on Myspace and we got to talking and became friends. I first started hanging out with her back in June of 2009 and she became the safety pin to my plaid fabric. I respect her more than anything because through out what people say about her she holds her head high and tries her hardest to be there for everyone. I will never forget the crazy and hilarious times I have had with my ShilohBby. TENTACLES! <3
Cassaundra Marie - This girl is so special. I've only known her since the beginning of Summer '09 but quite honestly shes one of the few of my friends who has never previously hated me. And I love her for that. She is such a strong girl and it breaks my heart to know that she has been hurt by people. She has shown me what a truly strong and empowered person is and I will treasure the memories I made with her. <3
Alyssa Maureen - Alyssa, Alyssa. Well, didn't I used to hate her? Yeah. And didn't she used to hate me? Yeah! How strange! xDD. Well, she is such an interesting person. She does have quite the sharp and switchblade personality and sometimes spontaeneous but I feel like the past I had with her doesn't matter and all that matters is the friendship we have now and I absolutely love her to death. Oh, one last thing...BABY CARROT! <3
Jemia Netasha - Jemia is so amazing. She has been my "sista" since 6th grade. I have known her since 3rd but in 6th we got so amazingly close. This girl means the world to me and I do not think I could ever compare to her. She puts the brightest smile on my face and she will do the goofiest things with me, such as write our rendition of Britney Spears' "If You Seek Amy" to "If You Seek Austin" in Math Class when we're supposed to be multiplying fractions with uncommon denominators in 6th grade. xD. <3
Austin William - I love this kid. I've known him since April of 2009 and he's put me through some hardships and worries me sometimes, but I thank him for the most amazing memories he's given me and the insight I now have. He is definetely a strange and interesting child but I am so happy he's given me the exciting life I now have. Hes my brother, hes my AustinCat...and no one else's. <3
Lindsay Alissa - Sometimes when we argue we seem like two bickering sisters, but thats how we've always been. You're my Twinneh and you have shown me so much in this world. I will admit, sometimes you
Samuel Thomas - I've only known you since September of 2009 but you have interested me since. You're a very...peculiar person who can sometimes be hilariously cocky. Like that ime in Wendys and the firetruck drove by...Oh God. xD. <3
Shannon - Okay, big deal, I forgot your middle name. xD. You're so sweet and so intelligent and caring but sometimes your decisions terrify me. I really hope you find yourself in this big ocean of lies. <3
Justen Matthew - No I did not put my boyfriend first. I'm sorry but...I don't put my boyfriends before my friends. Anyway, on with Justen, you're amazing. You make me smile, you make me feel like I'm actually worth something, and as thought all of these scars and nightmares melted away. <333
Nicole Leann - Okay, so you're one of my closest friends, but yet I have never met you. xD. You live in Ohio, and I met you through Lindsay. But you are so hilarious sometimes. I cherish the conversations we have on MSN and I will always be there to be your "relationship person". xD. <3
Meghan - At the moment I do not know your middle name. xD. But I met you through Shiloh this summer and at first I thought you didn't like me but now I know you do. xD. You're such a cool person I am very happy I met you and you're so intelligent and wise...sometimes it scares me. <3
Danielle - Don't know your middle name either. xD. But this year I met you in Choir and you added me and I realized what a cool person you are. You're uber fun to chill with and you're extremely helpful when I need help with the i-Macs in Choir. xD. <3
Carolyn Elizabeth - I don't care if I haven't met you in person, you are so amazing. I met you on Quizilla when you read my "Broken Billie Joe" Green Day fanfiction series and then you added me and I thought you were really cool. Especially since during our first conversation I was eating that orgasmic French Toast. xD. <3
Emily Marie Antoinette - Emily! Okay, well, I met you on Myspace too! :]. I forget why you added me. *racks brain* OH! Because I was dating Cody. Yes...I believe so. Anyway, you're so odd sometimes but ai luhh youh. You brighten up my day with your dancing pig, which I look forward to. <3
Audrey - NO I DON'T KNOW YOUR MIDDLE NAME EITHER. xD. Okay, well, I just met you this year, correct? But you are one of the coolest people I know. Especially in Wendys when you're laughing at me when I have ketchup on my elbow. >_>. xD. <3
Krystal - I met you this summer in the middle of the mall when your aunt or best friend's mom or whatever came in and took you and said she was gonna arrest Michelle. xD. You and me have talked 9874972987th times on IM and you are so amazing. <3
Just a little insight into my crazy friends.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Get Out of My Trash Can Cassie!
Hmm. My trash can? Inside joke with Cassie, Danielle, and Meghan. xD.
I like Mashed Potatoes.
I have for like, ever.
They're good with melted cheese.
Mmm.
Green Day is playing.
Doo doo doo doo doo da da.
Yeah. =(^.^)=. HELLO FUCKING KITTY.
:].
My shaddoowwsss only one that walks beside meeee.
I like that song.
Cassie is like....
dancing?
Sure.
Shes dancing.
LIKE A MACARENA.
Wait.
The Macarena is a dance.
Gurr.
juvfhuioerhg.
I love youuuuu Sannntaaaa.
You're so tasty.
I think my friend Austin tastes like chocolate ice cream.
Which makes no sense.
Because hes...a cracker.
Yes.
A CRAZY WHITE KID.
:].
Hmm...
I'm off to go lick him now.
Good day sir.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
I like Mashed Potatoes.
I have for like, ever.
They're good with melted cheese.
Mmm.
Green Day is playing.
Doo doo doo doo doo da da.
Yeah. =(^.^)=. HELLO FUCKING KITTY.
:].
My shaddoowwsss only one that walks beside meeee.
I like that song.
Cassie is like....
dancing?
Sure.
Shes dancing.
LIKE A MACARENA.
Wait.
The Macarena is a dance.
Gurr.
juvfhuioerhg.
I love youuuuu Sannntaaaa.
You're so tasty.
I think my friend Austin tastes like chocolate ice cream.
Which makes no sense.
Because hes...a cracker.
Yes.
A CRAZY WHITE KID.
:].
Hmm...
I'm off to go lick him now.
Good day sir.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Biography.
I was born on December 29th in the dead of winter.
My name is Lyndsey Elizabeth McNitt. I live in Mid-Michigan and people say I look exactly like my mother.
I don't believe them.
My dad isn't around. I don't like talking about it. He was a sick person of the mind. He had schizophrenia and suicidal thoughts.
My mother's name is Jennie Kate McNitt and is 37. She works at Dart Container as a Human Resources Manager. She had me when she was 25.
When I graduate from college there are two courses I have thought of.
Option #1: Go to University of Michigan and major in Cinema and/or Drama and become an Actress for Horror and Indie movies.
Option #2: Go to University of Michigan and major in Psychology and become a Psychiatrist specializing in Self-Harm and Eating Disorders.
Horror Movies are my passion. I have loved them as long as I can remember. My all time favorite would have to be "House of 1000 Corpses" or "Carrie".
The human mind also fascinates me. I want to know why us humans work the way we do and have these crazy emotions.
I've been Vegetarian for about 5 months. Once I hit a year I am going to attempt Veganism. I think its disgusting to eat animals. Thats my opinion, you can have your's.
I'm obsessed with Green Day. I have been since I was 8. Do not tell me they are not punk. They are Post-Punk or Pop-Punk.
I love cosmetology as well. I have been wearing make-up since third grade.
Read more if you want to know more about meeee :]
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey
My name is Lyndsey Elizabeth McNitt. I live in Mid-Michigan and people say I look exactly like my mother.
I don't believe them.
My dad isn't around. I don't like talking about it. He was a sick person of the mind. He had schizophrenia and suicidal thoughts.
My mother's name is Jennie Kate McNitt and is 37. She works at Dart Container as a Human Resources Manager. She had me when she was 25.
When I graduate from college there are two courses I have thought of.
Option #1: Go to University of Michigan and major in Cinema and/or Drama and become an Actress for Horror and Indie movies.
Option #2: Go to University of Michigan and major in Psychology and become a Psychiatrist specializing in Self-Harm and Eating Disorders.
Horror Movies are my passion. I have loved them as long as I can remember. My all time favorite would have to be "House of 1000 Corpses" or "Carrie".
The human mind also fascinates me. I want to know why us humans work the way we do and have these crazy emotions.
I've been Vegetarian for about 5 months. Once I hit a year I am going to attempt Veganism. I think its disgusting to eat animals. Thats my opinion, you can have your's.
I'm obsessed with Green Day. I have been since I was 8. Do not tell me they are not punk. They are Post-Punk or Pop-Punk.
I love cosmetology as well. I have been wearing make-up since third grade.
Read more if you want to know more about meeee :]
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey
Friday, October 23, 2009
Love?
Love can hurt. A lot.
Theres a person in my life I have dated twice before, and, I find it extremely hard and difficult to stop thinking about him.
So many people tell me I'm stupid for still having a small bit of hope that maybe just maybe that person might still have a small bit of the old them that would still love me.
Just maybe.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Theres a person in my life I have dated twice before, and, I find it extremely hard and difficult to stop thinking about him.
So many people tell me I'm stupid for still having a small bit of hope that maybe just maybe that person might still have a small bit of the old them that would still love me.
Just maybe.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
The Strange One.
Something I want to find out:
Do that many people really think of me as the strange girl sitting in the back?
Really?
Because since the beginning of the school year I have had about two dozen people ask me if I'm "emo" and about fifteen if I was "goth".
Its driving me crazy.
I like dressing the way I dress because it feels RIGHT to me.
I like listening to the music I LIKE listening to it.
I like writing the things I write because it feels RIGHT to me.
People need to learn you can't throw a label onto a person like a soupcan. Okay, this kid wears black skinny jeans and a MCR shirt so they're emo and cut themselves. This person wears a Cobra Starship shirt and some bright green pants so they're scene and like techno music and have industrial piercings.
Its so fucked up how this society has turned out.
People going back to the old ways of hating people because they're different.
Just like racism. "Oh. Look at that girl. She has on skinny jeans and a Hawthorne Heights shirt and isn't obsessed with Aeropostale and Miley Cyrus so lets hate her.".
Its so disgusting.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Do that many people really think of me as the strange girl sitting in the back?
Really?
Because since the beginning of the school year I have had about two dozen people ask me if I'm "emo" and about fifteen if I was "goth".
Its driving me crazy.
I like dressing the way I dress because it feels RIGHT to me.
I like listening to the music I LIKE listening to it.
I like writing the things I write because it feels RIGHT to me.
People need to learn you can't throw a label onto a person like a soupcan. Okay, this kid wears black skinny jeans and a MCR shirt so they're emo and cut themselves. This person wears a Cobra Starship shirt and some bright green pants so they're scene and like techno music and have industrial piercings.
Its so fucked up how this society has turned out.
People going back to the old ways of hating people because they're different.
Just like racism. "Oh. Look at that girl. She has on skinny jeans and a Hawthorne Heights shirt and isn't obsessed with Aeropostale and Miley Cyrus so lets hate her.".
Its so disgusting.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thanks For That.
So today I was speaking to one of my close friends on AIM and we got into an argument about how I make my problems seem more important than her's, which I don't.
And it escalated into me telling her why I've been hanging out with different people lately and she said "Thanks. That hurt." KNOWING it would make me feel terrible.
I really cannot handle the shit she pulls anymore.
And it escalated into me telling her why I've been hanging out with different people lately and she said "Thanks. That hurt." KNOWING it would make me feel terrible.
I really cannot handle the shit she pulls anymore.
So, Kid.
So, kid.
You are amazing in every single way.
I have no idea how I went so long before FINALLY meeting you.
It was in a crowded room, and I sorted you out from the others.
<333
You are amazing in every single way.
I have no idea how I went so long before FINALLY meeting you.
It was in a crowded room, and I sorted you out from the others.
<333
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