100 Facts.

1) I find punk rocker guys very sexy.
2) I thought I was a punk rocker in the sixth grade. Fail.
3) I'm fascinated with Russian culture and I don't know why.
4) I'm awful at any athletic sport except gymnastics.
5) I did gymnastics for 8 years then stopped due to a sports injury.
6) My natural hair colour is blonde.
7) The Sex Pistols are one of my favourite bands.
8) I thought Green Day were in their 20s when I first heard them in the third grade. Fail.
9) I cuss a lot out of habit and I can't control it.
10) I have a D- in English. Lawl.
11) I hate my eyes.
12) I have over-active tear ducts.
13) I have a Hot Topic HT+1 account (:.
14) I hate it when blondes think their hair colour is an excuse for ignorance and stupidity. You're not "blonde", you're dumb.
15) I was made fun of everyday in the 3rd, 4th, and 5th grade. I was an ugly duckling(:.
16) I hate the way I look.
17) I vandalize public building constantly.
18) I'm addicted to piercings. I shove needles through my ears out of bordeome and don't even put an earring in.
19) I really want to get high.
20) I've eaten pot.
21) I'm a terrible procrastinator.
22) I'm a bad influence.
23) I didn't come up with my "Internet Nickname", Lyndsey Laceration, because it was "scene". I came up with it because I love alliteration and I thought of it in 6th grade Science class.
24) I have the biggest crush on Sid Vicious, even if hes dead. <333.
25) If I ever do start a band I'm calling it Baptism [sp?] by Fire.
26) I love finding random creepers on the Internet.
27) I'm one of those people who talk to themselves. A lot.
28) I draw Swastikas in Algebra out of boredome. I'm 1/4 Jewish, shut up.
29) I can do the Moonwalk.
30) I could never do the Walk It Out. >_>.
31) I learned the Pop Lock 'N' Drop It in the 3rd grade and did it constantly.
32) I've grown up way too fast.
33) I've only had detention once in my life.
34) I'm Bisexual but I tend to lean more towards penises.
35) I tend to go after the bad guys/girls. :}.
36) I don't know how to smoke a cigarette and I've tried three times and failed.
37) I want to learn German, French, Russian, and Latin.
38) I want a bunch of song lyrics tattooed on me.
39) At the moment I have 10 piercings. There's 6 more I want.
40) I hate red hair on guys.
41) I love red hair on girls.
42) I never found Taylor Lautner/Jacob Black attractive.
43) I want to marry Billie Joe Armstrong...even if hes already married(:.
44) I'm watching a Sex Pistols documentary right now.
45) I love my boyfriend.
46) I love Michigan football.
47) I have a bad habit of saying "like" a lot and my boyfriend's sister calls me a Valley Girl because of it. xD.
48) I have no idea what I want to do in life.
49) Once I had a lighter and was setting paper on fire and the paper caught part of my blanket on fire, I put the fire out, but I never found the lighter again. :O.
50) I hate money.
51) I have a fascination with the number 47 and I don't know why.
52) I change my hand writing a lot.
53) If I was a stripper my stripper song would either be "Hitchin' A Ride" by Green Day, "Submission" by the Sex Pistols, or "Tainted Love" covered by Marilyn Manson.
54) I used to have a great resemblence to Taylor Swift until I started straightening my hair, cutting it, and dying it(:.
55) I really want to learn how to play the drums.
56) My favourite smell is the smell of chlorine.
57) I want a pet raccoon, snake, bird, and cat. I already have a cat but I want another.
58) I've been hospitalized a total of 6 times for different things.
59) I've given my name to the police a total of three times but never been arrested.
60) I'm an extreme Liberalist.
61) I love punk rock music but I'm not a punk rocker.
62) I want to put safety pins in all of my piercings and go to school.
63) I have a total of 445 scars.
64) I have a pair of Dominatrix pants. xDD.
65) I love being pale.
66) I want to move to England.
67) Spiders terrify me.
68) I'm not an Anarchist just because I like drawing Anarchy signs.
69) I found out 69 was a sex position in the fifth grade.
70) I hate any jeans any other fit than skinny jeans.
71) I got my first pair of skinny jeans in the sixth grade.
72) I love strawberries.
73) Astronomy class is hilarious.
74) I've only ever been in love twice.
75) I was too lazy to do 100.

Flaws.

I have a rat nose.
My eyes are too small.
My skin tone is disgusting.
My lips are too thin and chapped.
I have elf ears.
My arms are scarred.
My legs are scarred.
I have no waist.
I have no hips.
I have no figure whatsoever.
My legs are fat.
My boobs are really ridiculously small.
My voice is disgusting.
My hair is gross.
My hair never looks right.
My teeth are fucked up.
I have rabbit teeth.
I have no cheekbones.
I have no jawbone.

I'm not doing this for attention.
I'm bored so I decided to make a list.

Amen,
Lyndsey.

My Day of 1/26/2010

Before School: I fell asleep after I woke up, my eyeliner was being a bitch, and I got a bunch of mud on my shoe.

First Hour (Social Studies): I took a test. I probably failed. My lip hurt.

Second Hour (Adv. English): We read Chapters 1 & 2 of Animal Farm by George Orwell. Its a satire about the Russian Soviet Union.

Third Hour (Vagabonds): Alyssa had on a cute outfit. My lip hurt. Me and Danielle both had on All Time Low shirts.

Fourth Hour (Algebra A): Marteryous was late because he has AIDS. xD. Justen, Mar-Mar, and Carter cheered me up I guess.

Lunch: I sat with Lindsay. Noah called me annoying. One reason why I'm in a bad mood.

Fifth Hour (Astronomy): Gay alien pigs are gonna rape all boys who wear briefs. The gay ones have curly tails. I got yelled at for telling everyone this.

Sixth Hour (Science): Finished my packet. Whoo.

After School: Walked home with Shane. Interesting.

Happy?
Amen,
Lyndsey.

Honey;

I will always be here.
I know you are going through a very rough time right now...and I know it sucks.
I know how much you want to go back to what you did.
I know you've relapsed.
And I'm sorry.
I'm sorry you have to go through this.
I'm sorry you have to live with this.
I'm sorry.
I will always be here for you. I promise.
I won't leave you.
Only if you tell me to.
You should know you're not on your own.
I know how isolated you feel.
You've told me.
And I wish...that...I could trade you places.
I know you act like you're happy.
But honey. You're not.
I'm sorry.
People don't know what you've been through.
They don't.
But I think I do...
And I'm here for you.
I promise.
I love you.
Amen,
Lyndsey.

GAH!

Stop fucking saying you know so much about piercings.
God damn.
You have how many piercings? Two.
Two basic earlobe piercings.
Which were done professionally.
And you won't even let someone pierce your fucking cartilage.
Geezu$.
And you act like you're the god damn conniseur [sp?] of D.I.Y piercings.
You fail.
You fail miserably.
I have ten piercings.
7 of which I did myself, my lip piercing was done for me by a friend, the remaining two I got done professionally in the second grade.
God damn.
>_<.
Amen,
Lyndsey.

Sixth Grade.

I miss the 6th Grade.
Don't get me wrong, I like the 7th Grade.
I have amazing, amazing, amazing friends...but.
Sixth grade was so less complicated.
I didn't have nearly as much personal problems I have going on in my life now.
If I could have the exact same relationships I had with my old friends in the sixth grade now along with the relationships I have with my new friends I'd be one happy camper.
I miss it.
The thing I miss the most is Tuesday Lunch with Ms. Kloeckner.
Ms. Kloeckner was the social worker at Frost. Lindsay, Jemia, Mackenzie, Shannon, Cearra (Okay, one person I do NOT miss.) and I would go down to her office for lunch and talk.
We have had the best memories in that room.
I really miss it.
I've changed, Jemia's changed, Mackenzie's changed, and Shannon's changed.
But for some odd reason...Lindsay hasn't.
Amen,
Lyndsey.

So;

There is a lot of drama going on in my life at the moment.
LETS START WITH SAMUEL! =D.
For those of you who do not know, Samuel Thomas Willis was once someone I was very close to.
Not anymore! =D.
He screwed me and my friend Emily (who was his best friend) over completely so I basically told him to get the fuck outta my life.
And it didn't bother him. One bit.
I'm sick and tired of him getting everything he fucking wants and not having any fucking consequences.
Hes hurt so many people, its pathetic.
Hes disgusting.
Hes just...ugh.
Starting February 1st, I am going to act like I never knew him.
When people ask about him or say his name I'll be like "Sam who?".
I wasted five months of my life for him.
And what did I get out of it?
A bunch of problems, and someone hating me.
I wish I would have never added him on Myspace or gone to the Crossing September 6th, 2009.
Geezu$.
He made my life so fucking difficult.
And then he'd get mad when I still loved someone, Cody Lent, who means the world to me and has always been there for me?! Unlike him.
He said how "unstable" I was.
Hahahahahahahahaha.
I'll show you unstable.
God.
Amen,
Lyndsey.

My Day of 1/12/2010

Before School: I woke up late. I usuallly wake up at 5:30 AM. I woke up at 6:00 AM. Probably because I was up all night having a deep conversation with Cody via text. I texted him around 7:00 AM, like usual, but he never replied. :/. My mom drove me to school, she drives me to school now! :]. Everday on the way to school I listen to Hawthorne Heights on my iPod. Every morning. And on the way home its always Blood On The Dance Floor, Bring Me The Horizon, or Marilyn Manson. Odd.

First Hour (History): We gave our China presentations today. I was in a group with Raylene, Zach, Andrew, and Nick...I think thats his name. Eventhough I wasn't there for the 2 out of 3 days they worked on it I did pretty well. My paper was on Chinese History starting with Mao Zudong...I think thats his last name anyway...and Chinese Fun Facts! Did you know 30% of adults in China live with their parents? Fail.

Second Hour (Advanced English): Before 2nd Hour, in five minutes, me and Raylene ran all the way from the 7-2 hallway to the Administrative Building's Attendance Office and back for her to hand in an obituary because she missed school due to a funeral and me to turn in a doctor's excuse. We made class too. xD. I had to look up defintions in the computer lab and type them up, luckily I'm a fast typer and had free time. xD. I listened to music on Grooveshark. I think it was "Bad Romance" by Lady Gaga, "Wonderwall" by Oasis, "16" by Green Day, "Ashley" by Escape the Fate, "Brick By Boring Brick" by Paramore, "Josie" by Blink-182, "I Miss You" by Blink-182, "The Sadness Will Never End" by Bring Me The Horizon, "Speed Trials" by Elliott Smith, and "We're Not Gonna Take It" by Twisted Sister.

Third Hour (Vagabonds Choir): Warm-ups = Hilarious. Mr. Burnette was unknowingly making oral sex jokes. Me and Alyssa were laughing hysterically. Then to teach the Soprano & Alto sections how to keep a note since some people kept changing their pitch on "do" during Festival Sightreading Drills he made us hop up and down the risers, bottom step representing "la", 2nd was "ti", third was "do", and 4th was "re". I almost fell like 6 times. We practiced "Cum Sancto Spiritu" and Devon & Alyssa got in a fight and he called her a "fake racoon fish". Haha, he needs better insults.

Fourth Hour (Algebra A): Miss Quinn asked me if I was okay. Shes been really nice to me lately since the whole Mackenzie incident. I was pretty quiet, Algebra tends to make me think about deep stuff. Work was pretty easy. Just some easy linear equations in the workbook.

Lunch: I sat with Lindsay, Micheal B., Kelsey IDon'tKnowHerLastName, Sarah H., and Avery K. I usually sit with Cassie, Alyssa, Tim, Devon, Maddie, Taylor and lately Bailey's been sitting over there but today I sat with Lindsay since its Tuesday. Micheal kept stealing my chips and Lindsay let me eat her grapes.

Fifth Hour (Astronomy): xD. Amazing. Mr. Reed turned the lights off again today to do the light dome false-sky thingie and Lindsay, Maddie, and I were acting retarded. xD. Lindsay like...raped my leg and Maddie kept shouting out "Penis Major"/"Penis Minor" instead of "Kanus Major"/"Kanus Minor.". Good timessss. Prank called Walmart on the way back to school.

Sixth Hour (Science): Mrs. Damm had 8 of us represent organs in the digestive system. Jaren was the mouth, Jacob was the saliva, I think Sammi was the esophagus, Andrew might have been the stomach, Raylene was the stomach acid, someone else was the small intestines, I was the large instestines, and Mark was the rectum. xDD. I laughed. We have to write down everything we eat from 1:25 PM 1/12/2010 to 1:25 PM 1/13/2010. So far I have Chocolate Soymilk, Soy "Chicken" Nuggets, and salad. Yep. I'm healthy bitch.

Bus Ride Home: I sat with Audrey and we talked about Dre & Cody. Ian was talkingto us too until Shi'Anna sat with him, then for some odd reason he got quiet...hmm.

So yeah. My day was alright. xD.

Amen,
Lyndsey.

[I have a new signature, if you didn't notice. I know "amen" isn't typically used, but I came up with it in Science and I really like it.]

Now.

Is where I want to live.
I have been dwelling on the past for way too long.
Re-living moments of my life I wish I could forget.
Or living in the future.
Worrying about things that won't happen in a while.
Paranoia.
I want to live in the now, which at the moment is;
Having my cat rubbing his head on my calf, listening to Marilyn Manson, talking to Shiloh, Cassie, and Sam, wanting Cody<3 to get on AIM, being too lazy to click on the blinking IM windows, and thinking about how uncomfortable my ankle is.
I don't need to be thinking about the same thing over and over again that happened 9 years ago.
I don't.
I want...to live.
From The Mind Of,
Lyndsey.

Celebrity Crushes?

1) Billie Joe Armstrong. [Forever and always will he have this spot. <333]
2) Jack Bakarat.
3) Ronnie Radke.
4) Gerard Way.
5) Oli Sykes
6) Lady Gaga
7) The creeper guy from the original "Pyscho".
8) Robert Pattinson.
9) Chryssi from the Divinyls.
10) Gwen Stefani.
11) Travis Barker.
12) Marilyn Manson.
13) Tom Felton.
14) Dahvie Vanity.

And of course, the most famous person on the planet, CASSIE MATISKA. <3. xD.

New Years Resolution.

So today is 1/1/10. Two years until we supposedly will all die. Which I do not believe, but thats another post. :].

I have a few New Years Resolutions. Last year it was for me to lose 50 pounds. At the time I was sick and did two different sports and weighed 108 pounds I believe. Before that it was 83. Anybody think 5' 1.5" tall and 58 pounds is attractive? Ha.

1. Become immersed in my music again. I used to write songs constantly, play piano all the time, and sit in my room for hours playing guitar. I don't do that anymore. I stopped playing guitar because someone who meant a lot to me at the time told me I was terrible and that I should never touch a guitar ever again. I kind of just stopped playing piano after that and lost motivation to write songs or take poetry I wrote and turn it into songs. So I'm hoping to begin writing again and get back to piano and maybe guitar.

2. Start a collaboration Youtube channel with Cassie. Me and Cassie want to do this. Badly. I have no idea how it'll work...but it will.

3. Stop letting things get to me so much. So many things get to me and will bother me for DAYS. Even the smallest thing makes me feel guilty, and I want to change that.

4. Learn to control my paranoia. I am extremely paranoid, I don't know why. If someone looks at me funny that I'm friends with I'll be nervous that their mad at me. Or if they don't respond on MSN/AIM/Myspace IM/Facebook IM right away I'll start freaking out and if someone IS mad at me I have a nervous breakdown. Thats just the half of it.

So those are my New Years Resolutions. Hope I can complete them.